Woooo it has been a week since I blog!! Hmmm just came back frm camp!! I really enjoy the camp frm fellowship to teachings!!! Its a unforgettable camp!! God really speak to me I can really feel it!! I really learn quite a lot frm this camp really change my view for some of the things!! Its was kinda emotion for me / everyone on the second nite where we got to affirm someone!!

Right here I wanna continue my affirmation coz tt night I wanna say a lot of things but just couldn't say it out!!! Haha!!!

Huimei: Remember I tell you I got a lot to say!! Yup here I go hmmm really glad to have a friend/sis/mama like you. you are always there for me no matter wat!! Always so caring, loving, encouraging towards me or rather everyone!! Really happy to cya grow sooo fast frm just a member to a shepherd then now a CL.... Can really c tt you have a lot of faith in god! Even though how tired you are you will nv complain!! You will always continue to do your best.... I know you can do it [lead your cg well]!! Really!! Am really happy to serve in the same unit as you!! Love ya lots!!!

Oh oh its Thursday already... Tml will be the last day of attachment!!! Gonna miss this place! =) Its a cool place to work in though!! But got to go back on Monday coz got to hand over the stuff to the next student tt is cuming in.....

I wun be at the office the whole day tml.... coz I got to "help out"!! Got to follow a Thai grp ard the places tt they will be going.... I am like a tour guild!! Hahaha!! Its not fun lor coz I am the only 1 there.... How am I going to survive man!! Tink I will die of boredom!!! Hahaha!! Got 4 presentation cum go ard the place with them tink is some bio related place... Its frm 930 to 500!! OH NO bio again??? I am going to study bio-informatics next semester, I did bio stuff for my final yr project... Am I really fated to do bio stuff??? Hahaha!! Hai..... No choice I have to go no matter wat!!

Feeling bored / sleepy / tired .......... Hahaha!! Got nothing much to blog actually!! Oh 2 more weeks of attachment n I am going bk to tt stupid sch to study!! I have no idea y I dislike tt sch so much!! Maybe its becoz of the journey / phobia tt I have during FYPJ [final year project] / I dislike my course..... I also dunno!! I just dun like "YIO CHU KANG"... Hahahaha!! Hai .... No choice got 1 more semester to go n I am free I dun have to go YIO CHU KANG anymore!! Hahaha!! I remember telling AP tt I dislike the station YIO CHU KANG sooo much tt I didn't even wan to c the station!! Hahaha!! SO I was saying if I were to go to Bishan I have to tk the other way coz I dun wanna c this station!! [think tt was when we were on our way to Donavan's hse to stay overnite coz next day was camp] Haha!! Remember tt AP?? I really miss those days!!

Oh I am going for Veena 21st birthday party later!! OH NO!!! I am gonna feel so weird again coz I will be the only Chinese there!! Hahaha!! NO choice can u imagine if I dun turn up I will get kill by her or rather Anu!! Hahaha!! Guess gonna stay for awhile then leave already coz its sooooooo far away frm my hse the place is somewhere near farrer park mrt station!!Oh got survivor tonite also but guess I gonna miss it coz I wun be able to reach on by 10pm!!! But its ok!! (o''o)

How I wish I had a teddy bear or something with me now so tt I can hug!! den den wants a hug!! A big hug!!!! =( I wanna go to the beach to relax myself!! I find tt beach is a calm n relaxing place!! I wanna go there!!! In the nite will be cool coz nobody will be there I guess!! SO tt I will be alone enjoying the breeze!! OR maybe sum1 wants to cum along??

STAY STRONG U CAN DO IT!!!!!!

IN THE AFTERNOON!!!

The secret is out!!!!! Didn't know tt pple ard me are so screwed up!!! Not at my best today!! Coz I found out something tt is unbelievable cum will nv thought of it!! OH MY!!!! What worse can it get man!! I am not tt sad actually coz I have already known abt it but not the whole picture!! Come to tink "true" every1 has done something wrong b4 but is it tt easy to forget everything n forgive tt person??? I have been trying to actually [it seems to be getting better ] coz no matter wat I still love tt person!!! Without tt person I wun be who I am now!!! Really really pray tt everything will be alrite!!! YAH I MEAN EVERYTHING!!!! How I wish I could go back to the past living the live where I dun have to care / bother so much!!!! I miss the paintshop days, where "ye ye" [grandpa] is still alive!

To tt someone :
I know u have been very stress abt work and stuff... I know tt u have done wrong things ..... Who have nv do wrong things b4?? As long as u know you are wrong and willingly to change I will always be there to support u!! NO DOUBT abt it!!! Just wanna say no matter wat I LOVE YOU always!!! [ I doubt u will read this anywhere just wanna say how I feel this is a online diary remember!! ]

Oh no time past real fast...... It Wednesday again!! Its week 9 for attachment already 3 more weeks to go!! Its seems as though yest was just the 1st day of attachment!! Oh 3 weeks more and its holiday for me finally get to rest ever since FYPJ [Final Year Project] starts..... Then after tt got to go back to the place tt I dislike to study again.... This time it will be bio-informatics!! I have no idea wat is it abt.... =( I know it wun be easy [wonder who's gonna help me if I am stuck, I am the only 1 in my class tt kena this module for yr 3!! WONDERFUL rite? Haha!] ... But nothing is easy!! SO guess I am gonna depend on myself then!!

Bruises Everywhere!!!

OUCH!! Haha!! I look as though I got abuse or something..... Wanna know y?? Coz I fell of the chair wen I wanna stick this stupid wire back.... Hahaha!!

Gosh!! I am dosing off here in the office I am sooo tired n sleepy can!!! Can u imagine I am looking at the comp pretending to do something but actually my eyes are close!! Hahaha!! Got things to do also can dose off!! WONDERFUL!!! Hahaha!! Opps! If anyone in the office see this blog I am gonna die!! Haha!! But most prob wun!! Haha!! Am suppose to write a report for my attachment!! Haha!! Just realize yesterday tt I got to write quite a lot for this report. Thought was just a simple report but its not still got to follow the format given n blah blah blah!!! Dun even remember what is the acknowledgement page for!! What am I suppose to write for acknowledgement?? Write report also can be so "STRESS"?? Hahaha!! Alrite shall stop toking abt this dodoified report of my! Haha!!

Oh went to "IKEA" with ren, ap, raymond yesterday!! Haven been to ikea for quite sometime! Love the smell of ikea [the woody smell] !! Haha!! Went there coz ap got to get something frm there!! Haha!! B4 tt we went to this hawker near ikea for dinner n guess wat the food there sux coz the food we order is either too tasty or tasteless..... But we finish up our food guess we were too hungry or something ["hungry but all eating very very slowly"]!! Hahaha! Though food not nice, meet only for awhile but still enjoy myself!! At least we get to meet up!! Hehe!! =)

Oh its the end of the week again!! Have been waiting for this day of the week coz I can wake up later the next day!! Coz I dun have to work on Saturdays already!! COOL!!!!

Actually this is suppose to be posted on the 28 sept [ which is on the mooncake festival]..... But I dun have a time to blog so decided to blog it today!! Hmmmm was on my way hm tt day. Seeing lots of kids holding their lanterns, playing with candles / sparkles!! It really remind me of the days where at this period of time I will be at my granny hse[the old hse] with di n da eating mooncake, playing games like "not allowing the balloon to touch the floor", lanterns hanging all over the balcony, playing with candles then after tt my godpa will bring all of us to this playground each holding a lantern!! Hahaha!! Its like sooo cool!! But now tt we are tooo old for tt and I tink we dun even dare to carry a lantern with us now!! Hahah!! Really miss those days!!

Oh just remember today is children's day!! SO HAPPY CHILDREN's DAY to everyone out there!! Hahaha!!!

A!A! Its the end of the week again!!! COOL!!! I can rest sia!! Have been so tired!! Staring at the comp 24/7...... Yup bad for eyes!!! I also know but no choice I am studying IT stuff!! Getting sick of the comp real soon!! I dun use the comp when I get home already!! When I get home I will either rot in my room / read comics or watch TV!! Hahaha!! Yah very boring I know dun have to tell me!! Hahaha!!

OH!!OH!! I am totally broke on a budget now!! Hahaha!! Coz of my stupid spec went to make my spec on Sunday! It cost me 75 bucks [but I tink is kinda worth it coz I was able to collect the spec in 15 mins]! It includes a KFC voucher, a pair of 1 day acuve contacts[I ask for it coz wanna try to c if I could wear it! Haha!!] and of course my new spec! It looks the same like most of my fren say just tt it is black! Hahaha!! But no choice they only have those under the special package!! Hahaha!! The most impt tink is I can c!! Hahaha!!! Oh I broke my record man!! Can u imagine I only spend $3.20 yesterday[it includes lunch n dinner I didn't stave myself]!!! Hahaha!! Cool huh!! I shd continue and keep up with the gd job man!! Hahaha!!

Sob! Sob! My spec broke!!! Now I am kinda blind!! hahaha!! I cant find my old spec either!!! AND I am broke got no $ to buy new spec got to wait till the end of the mth when I get my pay then can go n make!! GOSH!!! Spoil at the wrong time sia!

Hmmmm its kinda hard today coz pple are asking me to do tinks tt I dun wanna do!! Its doesn't feel gd to reject pple either coz I dun like tt feeling too!! But the tink is once I made the decision no1 can change it!! YUP u can say tt I am stubborn!! I am I admit!!! But I dun tink its my fault either coz I am not inform in the 1st place I found out by chance actually!!! So whatever way pple tink abt me I dun care I am like tt!!!! One word STUBBORN!!!! [dun have hard feeling just wanna say how I feel here]

Did I do the right tink?? Shd I have send tt email in the 1st place?? Was it a good decision? I really dunno but no matter wat I have no regrets sending tt mail!! As least now she knows how I feel / tink. Remember sum1 tell me b4 u can share yr tots n feelings with sum1 u wanna share u dun have to keep everything to yrself!!! Hmmmm I tink sometimes its just right to tell sum1 how u feel! Though sometimes the outcome might not be the 1 u hope / wish for but at least when u say it out and u feel better! I am a person who doesn't know how to express my feelings!! But really thx God there is something call SMS n email!! Coz I cant tell the person face to face [coz I shy]!! Hahaha!! Hmmmm wondering if I am toking any sense?? Coz I dunno wat am I toking abt! Hahaha!!

hmmmm.... Have been thinking quite a lot lately!! Things just flood my head!!! I really have no idea what I am suppose to do!! shd I do this or tt!! I am really scare tt I might regret [as in make the wrong decision / choice!!] Pple have been asking me r u going to be like tt forever??? I really have no idea!! After living for 21 yrs n I still have no idea wat I really wan?? I feel like a loser sometimes!! hai.... Whatever tt is I shall go n figure it out myself!!!

Wow I haven been blogging for a wk!! alrite let me update with u guys!! hmmm.... Suppose have a surprise celebration for Aipeng on Tuesday but dunno who is the idiot tt told her abt it.... She spoil our plan sia!! Hahaha!! But I really enjoy my day coz I haven crap for like sooo long!! Really had a great time together with Sharon, Aipeng, Hui mei, Yihan, Jaime. Though I was very tired but really enjoy myself!! Haha!!

Today got to go for anu bday party!!! Hai I am broke got to get sooo many present!! Then Sunday going for aifa's wedding!! Gosh can u believe it my fren who is the same age as me is going to get married!! Present again!! Hahaha!! Can sum1 bless me with $! I haven got my pay yet so I am broke!! Hahaha!!

oh guess wat I have completed the the 1st draft of the flyer [for the students] I am suppose to do!! My officer say not bad!! When she say tt I was so relieve! Haha!! Cool!! I dunno if I can post it up here to show u guys but nvm tink I better dun!! But I still got to do another flyer for the staff!! I am cracking my head now! I dunno how to design coz I cant tink of anytink now coz I am sooo tired!! Dun have the inspiration!! SO I muz wait for the inspiration to cum then can do!! SO now slacking officer just went out!! Hahahaha!! SO tired can!! My eyes wanna close already!! Hai!! HEADACHE SIA!!!!

Gosh I am sooooo bored!! I got things to do but I dun feel like doing!! I have been like slacking for almost the whole day already!!! I got to design flyer for an event!! N I have no idea how to design it!! Hai!!! Headache sia!!! GOD!!! Pls give me wisdom!!

Oh yah yesterday went for y-hope family day! Its COOL!! Had steamboat at marina bay! Sooo many pple!!! Like the whole church is there nono I mean whole of youth! 1st time eat steamboat sooo many pple! Hahaha!!! But overall its a awesome day!!!

Wow had my napfa yesterday!! Guess wat I got a "thank you for participating cert"!! Haha!! I pass everything except 2.4km coz I got a very bad cramp/stitch when I was running like the 2nd/3rd round i tired to continue but cant. Never had such a bad cramp/stitch b4! If I haven had tt cramp/stitch I could have get a bronze or something!! Fail by 2mins can [passing is 17 but I got 19]!! Now I know how ap feel when she get the thank you for participating cert!! Hahaha!! After all this I also dunno wat am I suppose to do with this stupid cert. Not as if I am going to show it to my future boss or something!! Hahaha!!

Wow haven been blogging for like dunno how many days!! Hmmm got nothing to blog so didnt update...... At the office now! keke u guys muz be tinking this gal sure got nothing to do again tts y!! ERM tts not the case k!! My officer gave me things to do already I got to create this webbie for them n I got to do it all by myself meaning I will do the layout n stuff!! She say this will be included in my attachment meaning she will grade me with this I tink!! Have been doing it since morning!! So I am like relaxing now!! Actually not much progress coz I dunno where to put what information so I am still tinking of how I am suppose to do it!! hmmmm...... alrite enough of work!!

Haven been doing much lately, my normal routine is to go to work, eat then go home!!! Hahaha!! So boring can!! But going out with chair[ap] tml!! COOL!! Very long nv c her already miss her sia!! Hehehe!! We are going to some vegi place to eat!! COZ we have a vegetarian with us!! Hahahaha!! Vegi place I wonder wat kind of food they have there!! NO MEAT for a day!! Hahaha!! Hmmm guess I gonna eat fake I mean mock stuff!! [fake fish, chichken, pork but actually all potato or dunno wat!!] Haha!! Guess gonna try sumtink different. Actually dad brought us to eat at the vegi place once, but ever since i nv go already not becoz the tinks there not nice is becoz I still prefer meat!! NOT LIKE SOMEONE!!! Hahaha!!

I am super duper tired esp my eyes!! Like how long I slp still sooo tired!! If u give me a bed now I can fall aslp str8 away!! Guess wat i got napfa on thursday!! SO gonna die man!! Hahaha!! SO long nv run liao then still gotta do sit n reach , standing broad jump!! GOSH!!! HOW to man!! Hahahaha!! Friday n Saturday still got to work I can imagine myself aching like hell!! Hahahahaha!!!

Wow haven been blogging!! Was kind of busy for the past few days then got nothing much to blog also!! hmmmm I am soo bored!! Got nothing to watch on TV nothing interest me man!! Was watching Olympics in the afternoon!! Watched volley ball woman Kenya VS Japan... Wow didn't know tt Japan was sooo good their defense super!! N of course they won the match!! Its so cool watching them play!! Ok enough of tt!! haha!!

Was busy on Friday coz got to post up the newsletter on tt day!! Got lots of changes / updating to make on the website!! Do until headache sia!! Coz it look perfect on the software but when it is posted up on the web its totally different!! WAS really cursing n swearing the stupid software!! Hahaha!! But in the end still manage to finish it!!

Oh n yesterday service was kinda cool they have a play call 66th street it was sooo funny!! N the sermon was cool too!! It was abt living a live for GOD n not other pple!! As in u dun do things just to please pple around u but to do it God!! COZ he is always in control n he know wat is best for us!! He wun let us do things tt will harm us but for our own good!!

Jeremiah 29:11
[For I know the plan I have for u "declares the lord" Plans to prosper u n not to harm u, plan to give u hope n a future]

GOSH!!! I AM SOOO BORED!!!

Hmmmm earning easy $ and doing easy work is good but being bored is really a killer!!

Guess where am I right now??? Hahaha!! DUH!!! Of course at the office!! Haha!! Got nothing to do now got to wait for my officer to send me the information to update the website / newsletter. So I am BORED now!! Coz I am the only one in the room!! My officer not in she went to the head quarters!! SO I am all alone here!! Can say its kinda cool also coz got freedom!! Actually if she is here also got freedom lah just tt I dun dare to use!! Hahaha!! Alrite I shall stop here!! Tk cr guys!! Ciao.........

1ST day of WORK!!
Went to report for work on Saturday at NUS!! Guess what I was late coz I lost my way!! GOSH!! 1st time lost my way sia!! Its like so unlucky!! I took a shuttle bus to go to the place then it stop at the terminal so I took another bus down coz when I c the map still got 2 more stops!! Guess what I ended up in NUH can!! SO no choice I took a cab n the driver took me back to the place where the terminal was but tt is not the place either!! Ask around but nobody knows where it was!! In the end I ask the bus driver n he told me I can just walk down frm the terminal!! I was like...... I was here just now!! WASTED MY $$$$$ SO I reach at 840 instead of 830!!

But lucky my officer was nice didn't get scolding frm her!! The environment is kinda cosy lah!!! It a bungalow! The job given was ok too I just got to maintain the the NUS website!! Like update their website n stuff!! N the tink is I dun have to wear formal!! Hahahaha!! But if I got to help out in the seminar I got to wear formal as in the coat kinda tink!! Then she also allow me to use msn n listen to mp3!! GOT to go to work tml!! Hope I dun get lost again!! Hehe!! SO tok to u guys again!! CIAOZ!!!!

BORING!!!!!

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to meeeee, Happy Birthday to me!!! Hahaha!! OH NO!!!! I am one year older again......
Shit... But I still live life as usual hahaha!! DUN like to have changes I guess!!

Wanna share something with u guys!! I get to know where I am attach for my attachment today!! Its "NUS" near my hse summore cool yah!! hahaha!! And my supervisor for attachment is the head tt I mention abt the other time[ the wan tt ask me to call him coz I think I will fail my final year project ]!! YUP!!! Just this is the gift GOD gave me for my bday!! COOL!!! hahaha!!

Another 2 verses:

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plan I have for u, "declares the lord", plans to prosper u n not to harm u, plans to give u hope n a future

1 Corinthian 10:13
No temptation has seized u except what is common to man n god faithful he will not let u be tempted beyond wat u can bear. But when u are tempted he will also provide u with a way out so tt u can stand up under it.

PS: I dunno got error anot so go n double check yah!! Hahaha!!

YEAH!!! I am kinda FREE now!! Coz the presentation is over!! Hahahahaha!!! The presentation was ok or u can say rather smooth coz I was able to ans all the questions the independent marker / my supervisor ask me!! I was not even feeling scare maybe a little but not as bad as the previous presentation!! U know y??? Coz I pray very hard for the pass few days... I pray tt he will tk the fear away frm me n give me the wisdom to ans all the question tt the marker / supervisor will ask me!! Hehehe!! Now I really believe tt as long as u have FAITH everything u pray for, papa will give it to u!! THX papa!!

Hmmm....Went to have dinner with ren yesterday n she say tt I was not myself!! Hahaha!! She say tt I was rather weird!! [but I tot u always tinks tt I am weird?? Hahaha!] Hmmm guess I was too stress over the presentation [got headache]. But I am bk to myself already I guess!! Hahaha!! I was not walking properly yesterday coz I have a pair of weak legs Haha!! No wonder she say if u drink I might tink tt u r drunk or sumtink!! Hahaha!!! Anyway I tink I gonna memories 1 Corinthians 10:13 [she gave me another verse]!! Got nothing to do anyway!! Hehehe!! Ciaoz!!!!

Can u imagine I memorize all these!! Hahaha!!! And all these are given by SHARON LOW SHU JUAN [did I spell it correctly]!!!! Hahaha!!

Matthew 28:19-20
Therefore, go n make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the father n of the son n of the holy spirit n teaching them to obey everything I commanded u n surely I am with u always to the very end of the age.

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for n certain of what we do not see.

John 3:16
For god so loved the world tt he gave his one n only son, tt whoever believe in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

OH NO!!! Realize tt whenever I blog I will always be complaining! Hehehehe!!! OH NO there is another challenge cuming up tts tml. Got final presentation of my project!! Sure get shoot until very jia liat!! Coz I dun really have anything to show the tutor!! But I am prepared, can u imagine missile cuming out frm the tutor i will be badly injured after the presentation so do send me a msg to ask how I am k!!! Hahahaha!! Btw I am the first group to present!! 10:00 - 10:20am So if u happen to read this b4 my presentation help me pray k!! THX!!!!

8:56 am

Not planning / dun feel like doing my work I dun have the mood to do!!! Coz it really sux to look at the same old codes again n again!! Will always get a headache after looking at it! Guess I gonna read baby blue [borrow frm the library yesterday] later! Hehehe!! It can be sooo funny!! Was reading it on the train yesterday n I burst out laughing!! Hahaha!! Not sure if its becoz I am in a good mood or is it the content of the book that is funny!! Hahaha!! But its cool though can relieve stress!! Hahaha!!

Afternoon!! [After toking to the head of FYPJ]

HEY GUYS!!! I got good news to tell u I have to cum to sch tml!!! [which mean I tink I dun need to retake] Hahahahhahaha!! I am so happy!!! YES!!!! Keke I am going so out of control!! Hahahah!! Just came back frm blk L!! Went to call the tutor just now!! Hahaha!! Go all the way to blk L to use the phone coz its free.

After toking to him I feel so relieve he say to pass FYPJ doesn't mean u have to make yr program work. It is to see how u solve yr problems. Then he told me a lot of things oh n 1 thing he say was "I remember u, u r quite good at yr work I dun see y u will fail yr FYPJ".... Hahaha!! Really?? I dun believe wat I have heard summore frm a tutor!! He also ask if I am able to communicate with my supervisor!! The ans is suppose to be "no" but I told him "yes"!! Coz I scare later my supervisor will get into trouble!! So y make so much problem!!! But I tink he suspect coz he keep asking are u sure u are not keeping anything frm me?? I was like "nope"!! Hehehe!! But who cares!! Really wanna thx papa for making things turn out this way!!

Morning!!! [Before toking to the head of FYPJ]

Hey guys thx for yr concern!! Pple like char, huimei, ap...... n lots more. Know tt u guys have been trying to help me in my project asking yr fren to help and stuff really really appreciate it!! But guess I will disappoint u guys esp huimei!!! Asking yr fren to help me but I am still....

Hmmm got to call the teacher in charge [of my final year project] later!! Its abt my project I guess coz I email him yesterday asking, if I fail will I be still be posted to this stupid lab doing the same tink or sumtink else. That is where he reply saying "Can u call me I would like to tok to u"!! Wish me luck man!! I mean if u happen to read my blog pray for me yah!!!

Life have been very miserable this semester!! I am starting to hate sch or rather say have phobia going to sch everyday!! Can u imagine I dun even wan to see my tutor as in when I c him coming over to my lab I will be like "dun come here, dun come here" This feeling sux!! I am going mad soon!! Hahaha!! Didn't slp well also coz I will be thinking of my project stuff!! This will only happen when I go to bed coz b4 tt I didn't wan to think abt project at all was enjoying myself!! Hehehe!! Coz I am out of jail [tt stupid lab]. Instead of worrying abt my project I will be sooooo happy!! Hahaha!! But wen it come to my bed time tt is where tt stupid scary feeling comes!! SUX SUX SUX!!!!

C how it goes maybe after taking to the teacher in charge I will be free frm this stupid project??? I may not need to come to sch again [meaning I got to retake] tt will be soooooo COOL!!! Coz I will be relieve!! Not like I wanna retake, u think I wanna repeat this whole process again???? I really wan / need a good rest!!

Gonna disappoint all my fren liao!! Guess I gonna fail my project for sure!! Coz my tutor came over to check out on my work today!! Then he was asking questions like y am I doing this n tt! Then when he ask to let him c the codes tt I did b4 he was like is this wat u have been doing I was like yup!! Then he walk away liao!! Hai..... Tt expression tell me tt whatever I have done for the pass few weeks is wrong!! My goodness!! Feel kinda discourage lor as in I pray everyday and I believe tt he will help me but in the end nv!! But still I tell myself tt maybe I didn't pray hard enough!!!

Wow haven been blogging for almost a week..... I wanted to give up on my project yesterday!! [coz this is week 10 n next week is presentation already] Had lots of courage b4 I went up to tok to my tutor. The 1st tink I ask him was will I fail if I am not able to make the program work?? Then he ask to show him my codes. Guess wat I realize tt one of my file is gone!!! [lucky I dun have heart attack] But the tutor dun seem to believe tt the file is gone!! He give me the "yah rite" look. Sob! Sob! But now he just ask me to make my program work!! As in one of it!! So I guess I will be able to pass if I am able to make my program work!! If not I got to retake liao!! SHIT!!!!

Messages:

Aipeng: thx for all the advice and without yr encouragement I wun be toking/have the courage to approach my tutor!! Thx pal!!

Ren: thx for trusting in me!! Hehe!! Really make me wanna do my best!! [but guess u forget wat u say coz u got STM Hahaha!!] But still thx "Rennie" / "DODO"!!! (o"o)

Huizhen: thx for encouraging me tooo when I was abt to give up u are always there to pull me up n make me wanna continue to fight again!!! Lets do it together alrite!! Hehehe!!! thx "woman"!! haha!!

Hmmm haven blog since Monday!! Nothing much happen as usual rotting in sch doing tt stupid project of my!! Arrrr so irritating dunno y my program cannot work again[was working just now]!! Everything is not going smoothly!! WHY!!!!! Another testing??? Testing testing testing!!!! Sooooo frustrating!! Y cant my program just work!! SICKENING!!! Feel like giving up already!!! Was in a good mood wen I cum to sch today but after what happen to the program I feel very frustrated!!! Then the tutor cant over just now to check my work!! Then ....... Hai..... I dun wanna do this stupid project already!!! I wanna QUIT!!!! QUIT!!! QUIT!!! QUIT!!!

ZOO
How long haven u been to the Zoo?? Years, months, weeks or days?? Hahaha!! I went there yesterday with my ren!! Haha!! Weird huh go to the zoo!! Haven been there for years but it is still the same didn't change much!! But one thing weird is I dun see the giraffe!!

Hahaha!! Had a great day!! Laughing at stupid things..... Hahaha!! Sound like a kid!!! Gave nicknames like "butt face" [a monkey tt has a face tt look like a butt], "ba hu" [guess its a lama, the fur look like ba hu sooo cute!!], "kuku face beetle" [water beetle tt has a very connyified face], "gorilla cum bear" = sun bear [hahaha!! tt is wat ren called it], "jackass penguin" [this is wat the penguin is called weird name]..... Zoo is not tt bad actually!! Hahahaha!! Get to see weird animals!! Hahaha!!!

Butterflies in the stomach!!
Haven had this feeling [butterflies in the stomach becoz of project] b4 was sooo scare coz of my project!! Coz got presentation today!!! Lucky I was very tired last night if not sure can't slp!! Woke up with a stomachache guess is becoz too nervous!! Hahaha!!! When the teacher told us tt the presentation is change to tml I was like sooooo relieve..... But then I still will die tml coz I dun have much to show the tutor!!

Spiderman
Went to watch Spiderman 2 with Priscilla, Huimei and Aipeng yesterday!! Wow the show very cool!! Worth paying $6.50 to watch,I think is better then Spiderman 1!! Cool!!! ALL THE WAY MR SPIDERLY!!! Hahahahaha!!!

Broke Down
Did I mention b4 tt if another shock / something happen I will break down!! Yah!!! I broke down yesterday!! Had a good cry!! Coz I couldn't take it anymore!! Actually I feel much much much better after crying!! Now my heart is kinda relieve!! All the thinks tt happen is I cant do anything abt it wan!! Feel soooo unless sometimes!! Is like y cant I help??? Hai..... Feeling very tired now guess is becoz of crying.....

Hai.... Haven been doing anything for my project for yesterday and today coz I dunno how to do!! My tutor is not back yet!! I dun wanna ask tt stupid tutor already later kena scolding again!!! I really look down on him!!! NOT going to show him respect coz there is this "bimbo" in the lab then tink she go for 1hr break but suppose to be like only 15min he tell her nicely k [didn't even scold her!! wat is this man]!! Do something wrong nothing happen ask for help kena scolding!! I LOOK DOWN ON U!!! Sorry to say tt but guy sux!!! [Maybe not all but most of them]

BUT thx GOD for mei mei[Huimei] she say will help me ask her friend abt my project stuff!! THX!!!!

Just got scolding!! I did something wrong??? NO!!! I only ask for help!! Can u imagine ask for help and still get scolding!! Wat the....!!! Lost of words man!! Was sooo piss off with tt stupid teacher! Where got this kinda thing wan!!! I dun understand!! They should help and not glue themselves to their chair!! Take pay for nothing!!!

Conversation between us:
[Moi]: Sir I need yr help coz my Tomcat[a software] cannot work!
[Tutor]: Wats the prob!
[Moi]: The web page doesn't work [so I told him wat appear on the screen]
[Tutor]: It doesn't work mean the file in not in the folder.
[Moi]: No the file in the folder but still cant work.
[Tutor]: What u wan me to do??
[Moi]: Help lah!! Coz I dunno wat the problem is!
[Tutor]: Such a easy think also muz ask me for help
-[then he came over to look at the prob]-

End up.......
He also dunno the problem what!!! STUPID!!! He just ask me to reinstall the tink[I have done tt like dunno how many times liao]!!

SIGH!!!
Hai........... Is the word tt I have been saying to myself for the pass 2 days!! Sooooo many things happened!! Arggg!! So saddening!! Y cant everything go smoothly??? Y sooo many testing!! Even if wanna give testing y not 1 at a time but lots n lots of it?? I dun understand!!!

Hey gal if u happen to read this just wanna say do what yr heart ask u to do!! Dun have to feel bad u keep thinking for other pple what abt yrself??? They might not think for u!!! UNDERSTAND!!! Just go on with life!!! Everything will be alright.... You are the best!!!

PS: Hai!! I know I am not suppose to say tt but I just wan her to be happy and be her old self again!!! So just let her go pls....

[Thinking]: Should I post this anot!! Will anything happened? Will it affect anyone!!! Arrrggg who cares!!! I cant be bother already!!!

Had a great time with my classmates/ schoolmates today... Coz we haven had lunch together for very long already think since holiday!! Really had a great time toking to them and making fun of "HZ". Hahahah!!! As usual got scolding frm her!! But its already very good coz she only scold never hit!! Hahaha!! Guess she is too tired to hit me!! Hahaha!!!

Other then that I was damn bored in the lab again!! REALLY REALLY very sian got nothing to do. Or should I put it dis way, the things I know how to do had already done left with those I dunno. HAI!!! I just cant be free man!! Coz when I am free I will think of lots of things!! HAI!!! Its back again [tt feeling]!! Guess I gonna find things to do already, to make myself busy!! -SIGH-

I am "SUPER" bored today.... Got things to do but then just dun feel like doing!!! Feel soooo sian!! Was doing my java thing for awhile, then after that I was watching cartoon [watch the downloads from the web page] ..Hahaha!! The short clips on that webbie not bad some quite funny!! Hahaha!!
Click the link to see the webbie: Paul Frank

Got nothing much to blog today!! Coz its the usual school day which I have to stare at this stupid computer frm 830-5pm. Tutor not in school today guess next week too!! Everyone in the lab are like slacking including me!! Hahaha!! Just feel damn tired!! My eyes so tired, itchy and pain!!! Have to go and check my eye sight after this stupid project!! Sure increase!! Coz now I see thing is like kinda blur!! Hai.... Half an hour more to go b4 I can get out of this place!!

Oh next week start school already ar!! [For those who are still are still rotting at home] Hahaha!!! Call me if u got any break yah so tt I can go n have a break cum eat snake!! [coz tutor might not be in sch next week] Hahahah!!

Spoil my plan
Hai... My cousin msg me yesterday saying tt she did not manage to book the chalet!! Sad!! Was planning to celebrate my 21st at the chalet but now my plan is ruin. So was thinking what should I do now!! My mum call them [NTUC] today and the only date available is 8 Aug and it cost 125 bucks for only 1 day.... Mad I can spend the $ on other stuff man!!

Dedication
Hahaha!! Happen to find this picture frm the internet!! Priscilla [pea] this is for u!! When I look at the picture it reminds me of u!! Hahahaha!!!

HOW!!!!
I am getting more and more isolated!! Dun feel like toking nowadays!! Never been like tt b4, have experience it b4 but for 1 or 2 days. Its like a few weeks already!!! Guess its becoz of the final year project!! Coz ever since it started I have never been really happy abt it then I dun tok in the lab unless I need to ask something!!! Nowadays I guard myself more[withdrawn]!! Getting more n more depressed each day!! My mood will spoil other pple's mood??? I dunno!! I am already trying my best to make myself alive!! Coz I want the pple ard me to be happy too!! But then its difficult to control yr feeling when u are tired!!! I really dunno how!!!

Found these from the internet[Can't imagine I did this!! Just wanna find out what happen to me!!] Wow can be psychiatrist!!

Difference between Depression and Stress:

Symptoms of Depression:

* Loss of energy and interest.
* Diminished ability to enjoy oneself.
* Decreased -- or increased -- sleeping or appetite.
* Difficulty in concentrating; indecisiveness; slowed or fuzzy thinking.
* Exaggerated feelings of sadness, hopelessness, or anxiety.
* Feelings of worthlessness.
* Recurring thoughts about death and suicide.

Symptoms of Stress:

* Appears worried about many things
* Appears miserable, unhappy, tearful or depressed
* Shows little enjoyment in things
* Sheds tears over doing some things
* Has been irritable and quarrelsome
* Has been complaining of aches and pains
* Has been withdrawn and quiet
* Appears forgetful and shows poor concentration

Now I know why I have been like tt its becoz I am STRESS!! I got most of the symptoms for stress and a few for depression!! My GOD!!!

I am soooo tired!! Got to show my tutor the thing he ask me to do by the end of the day [5pm]. And I haven finish yet or rather say it doesn't work! SICKENING!!!! Having headache, stomachache all the aches man!! =( Got shepherding later.... In school I tink!! Not sure also!! Hahaha!!! Wonder what is she going to teach me later!! Anyway too tired to type already!! Sooooooooooo SIAN!!!!

Messages:
[Friends are all getting sick so just wanna say tk cr yah!!]

Joanne: How are feeling better?? [yr leg] Hahaha!! Alright shall not laugh! Cant imagine man!! Yr leg swollen!! Anyway guess will be alright soon!! Like what u say maybe becoz of the weather.

Priscilla: How u are feeling better!! Drink more water yah!! Hehehe!!! Dun last min!! [copy me]
Hahaha!!

Dawn: You too muz tk gd cr of yrself yah!! Just trust in him [papa up there]!! He will bring u through!!
Jia you!!

Diane: Hope u are doing fine!!! Tk cr!!!

Hahaha!! Guess what I was bathing half way then my hse black out. It like the whole block or rather say most of the areas in spore!! Hahaha!! Its kena cool though!! Haha!! Soooo romantic! Can c candle light frm every window and the stars too soooo nice!! Just love the atmosphere!! Had to wait for 45 mins then the electricity is back!! Anyway really thx God for giving us electricity!!!

Wow!! Just realize tt nowadays I write very long messages!! Is it becoz I got a lot of things to say or rather say its complain!! Have been complaining non-stop ever since I start school [final year project]!! So just bear with it lah!! Hahahah!! Anyway also complain 6 wk liao 6 more wks doesn't make any difference. 6 more wks and I am done with this stupid project!!! Pple pray for me k??? Pray tt I will be posted to a firm tt do html and not java for my attachment if not I will be dead by then!! If I get into a html firm at least I wouldn't complain!!! Hahaha!! So muz help me yah!! Hahaha!!! How I wish I could go into a firm which ask me to help them do web site for company..... Wow how I wish I can do tt!!! Other then animation I find tt very interesting too!! Maybe can go for further studies on tt but then guess they dun have it in spore!! Everything I want to study also dun have!! Check on the internet already they dun have!! Unless I go overseas!! But where got $??? So expensive to study overseas!!! Hai!!! Maybe GOD just want me to stick with JAVA cum DNA stuff!!!! BUT BUT I dun wan!!!! Its sooo torturing to do tt everyday!!! I will just kill myself if I have to do tt after I graduate!!! Hahaha!!

GOSH!!!! I am soooo STRESS!!!
Conversation between my partner and I [today]:

[Partner]: Hey denice can u finish the servlet by this week?
[Moi]: Erm I dun think so, coz I haven download the program and I dunno how to do it coz I nv learn b4! But I will try too!! I will try my very best to do it!!
[Partner]: Oh ok lor!!

Arrrgggg I feel sooo bad!! Like always dunno how to do always give him trouble!![Coz for the last few semester I dun take java, I take ASP/VB--programming language] I really pity him!! Kena the same grp as me!! Hahaha!!! GOD give me lots n lots of WISDOM [on java] can??? Please I beg u!!! How I wish I am a java genius!!! That's y wish now!!

Hai.... I really have to try to finish something by this week!! Coz next week is presentation already!! We are suppose to show the tutor what we have done so far!! =( As u know I didn't really do a lot not becoz I nv do my work is becoz I just can't make my program work!!! =( I HATE JAVA!!!! Can u imagine how much pressure is on me now!!! Its tons n tons of them!!! Soooo heavy!!! SADDENING!!!! I will go mad becoz of java!! Very soon I guess!! Xinni get me a place in Woodbridge yah!! U are nearer to tt place so its easier for u to book!!! Hahhaha!! MENTAL!!! [ Dida does this sound familiar? Hehe!! ] =)

PROBLEMS!!! PROBLEMS!!! PROBLEMS!!! Y nowadays pple ard me got sooo many problems?? Those who really cant take it will really go mad!! Guess its just "some" testing from GOD!!!

Got this frm my friend's blog [hope u dun mind]:

Problem is only problem when you define it as one, if you dun think of it as one, it is not. Do you drag yrself to work or school everyday?? I do!! Hehe!! But why not try thinking it in another way?
Example,
1] If you need to report for work, Think: You will be getting another day's pay and get more work done...!
2] If you need to attend school, Think: You will be learning new things, achieve higher wisdom...


Though its easier to say then to carry out!! But it kinda make sense!!! Papa up there only give us testing tt we are able to do it!! No parent in the world will want to see his/her child to suffer they only want to see them grow and mature!! This is also what papa want to see in us!!! So when you have any problems never give up yah!! I am also trying my best not to give up in my studies [the course I am doing now coz I really hate it but still I never give up, still perserving]!! So pple out there lets face our problem and solve it together??? Remember NEVER GIVE UP yah!!!!

Papa up there what should I do????

Human Organ Transplant Act
When to tk the letter just now!! Its abt donating yr organs after u pass away... Think they change the rule or something... Coz as long as u are 21 u they will donating yr organs when u die! SO if u dun wan then can opt out!! But got pple will opt out meh?? Die already still want organs for what mine as well give it to someone who needs it!! RIGHT???

=( I want to cry liao! Now waiting for the tutor coz he toking to the other tutor!!! Want to inform him tt I wanna go home!!! Saddening man!!! I want to shout leh!! Coz under STRESS [lots and lots of it]!!!!

Gosh!!! Woke up with a gastic again!!! Y??? But I still go to school!! No choice got to force myself to if not muz take mc already!! So expensive!! [to see a doctor] Arrrggg!!! Then now got headache!! Sick man!! I hate this feeling, feel soooo weak now!! Hai.... "I WANNA GO HOME"!!!!!

Messages:
dida: Read yr blogs just now!! Wow you guys went to some choco thing rite sounds delicious! Yum! Yum! Hahahha!! How I wish I was there... Then can slack together! Hahaha! Anyway Diane dun slack tooo much later cum bk die man!! Hahaha!! Dawn are u feeling better already read di blog saying tt you got fever!! Hmmmm we are sooo weak!! Haha!! Get sick sooo easily.... Anyway U guys tk cr and miz ya!!!

Got shepherding just now!! Learn something new today shepherd know I was unhappy for the past few days so she taught me abt joyfulness!!! Hehehe... Anyway got gastic when I was on my way home!! Almost puke!! Lucky never lah!! When I got home my mum told me tt I got a register letter... Guess what! Its abt some organ donor thing!! Haha!! When did I donate my organ?? Muz go to the post office tml to see what is it all abt!! Btw I was thinking if I wan to donate my organ who will want it!! Hahaha!!! Always headache, gastic then got asthma like all got problem. Haha!! How to donate!!! My sister say inside all spoil!! Ass!!! Hahaha!!!

Guess what!!! My tutor praise me today!!! Hahaha!! He actually say GOOD JOB!!! Wow!! Amazing huh!! Wow I still cant believe it!! Is he in a good mood or did I hear it wrongly?? Hahaha!!! After sooo much scolding/nagging frm him, he actually praise me today!! WOW!!!!

This really brighten my day abit!! Coz have been feeling moody!! Arrrrg I really hate this feeling!! It really sux!! Muz straighten things out and try not to think abt it after tt!! Trying to make myself busy!!! But when I am free tt moodiness is back!! Hai!!! Is this what you call depressed?? Or is it a sign telling me tt I am in the process of heading towards depressions??

Only thing I feel now is SIAN, SIAN, SIAN!!!! Have not been in a very good mood today either!! Just feel like being alone when I am outside.... You know like those channel 8 movie where pple will walk along the road alone? Hahaha!! Yah tts what I feel like doing!!!

How long can I persevere????
Hmmm.... Have been thinking quite a lot yesterday!!! Feeling better today at least I dun feel tt frustration inside anymore!!! Guess its because I dun have enough sleep or something!! Feeling very very tired now!! Can just fall asleep anytime but trying to make myself awake coz I've been slacking for 2 days already its time to work!! Hehehe!!!

Drag myself to sch today!!! Feeling kinda weak!! Coz like no strength especially my legs guess if sum1 push me I will just fall [coz got gastic's last night then tt stupid head of mine ache like hell]!!! HAI!!!!!! Have been trying to make tt stupid program work but can't!! SIAN!!! Gosh!! Its already wk5 still got 7wks more to go!! Got to persevere somemore!! After tt attachment guess tts gonna be worse!!! Arrrggg!!! I am going crazy soon!!! Real SOON trust me!!!

Da has left!!
Da in on the plane heading towards Melbourne now. Went to the airport to send her off just now... She tried to make me cry but I didn't [control control]!!! Hehehe!!

Messages:
Dawn n Diane : Just wanna wish you all the best in yr studies/teaching n tk good care of yrself yah!! [di:Cum bk we go out for dinner k]...

Aipeng : I know recently lots of things happen but dun worry just preserver on yah!!! Papa up there will help u [though he is testing u but remember he only test pple on things tt he know u can do it]!! So jia you k!!

Should I go ahead with it??
Hmmm... Found an animation school online tt day!! Its call Intense Animation Studio they are giving part-time classes on animation and its only takes me 3mths to complete the course!! Was thinking of going to this sch after I graduate!! But dunno if its the right choice!! Tok to my mum n dad abt it and they say go ahead with it after I graduate... But one thing I am worry abt is, after this course would I be able to work in an animation firm?? Guess I should find out more abt it!!!

ARRRRG!!!!
Feeling very frustrated today!! Dunno y lucky nothing bad happen today if not I will really blow up man [Eg, pple in the mrt push me or something]!! Dun feel like toking and feeling really moody!! Saddening man!!! Alright I gonna stop here got to slp liao have to wake up early and face reality [sch]!!!!

I am sooooo bored now... Got nothing to do... Actually got but then I dun feel like doing. Very SIAN!!! Got a presentation later!! Hope everything turn out fine!! Doing most of the talking... Scary... Suppose to have the presentation at 10:30am but the tutor got to go somewhere so change it to 2:30pm instead. Kinda know what to say but scare later when its time to present I panic then die liao!! Guess I should pray for calmness and courage. =) Wish me luck man!!

Yes tml is Saturday liao. Half day of school then after tt I might go and cut my hair. Hahaha!! Mummy doesn't want to cut for me she ask me to go get it cut myself, coz she say she not free! Wonder how I am suppose to tell the hair dresser..... Coz my mum always help me cut my hair I dun remember going to the saloon to cut my hair b4!!! Hahaha! After tt go to church!! YEAH!!! Tml got center stage [guess its the semi-final]! After church have to rush down to my granny's place coz they celebrating her bday somewhere near her house....Alright I shall stop here... TK CR!!!!

LOOK ALIKE
Dun they look alike!! Can't stand it man when I see Oscar [the fish] reminds me of DELIA CHUA!!! Hahahaha!!! U can compare it below!!!

SADDENING CUM STRESS
Finally settle down to do my work today!! Coz the tutor came over to check what we have done so far. He saw our presentation slide and say tt we have to redo it!! SO I redo it this is nothing another thing tt is sad is because...... WHATEVER I have done for the past 1 or 2 wk is wrong!! I have to redo the whole thing!!! NEVER MIND with soooo many support I shall persevere and do it.... Arrrggg!!

Time to count down!!!
It 4:54pm now!!! 6 more mins I can clock out already!!! YEAH!!! Have always been waiting for this time of the day man!!! Didn't do much today, fell aslp after I took my medi again!! Want to know what I do today?? Think only write report for my presentation for Friday then recode my program only!! SIAN!!! Really dun have the mood to do anything!!! 3 more mins...... 2 more mins ...... 1 more min.... Yeah!!! I am going home!! Cya!!!

Finally got my shoe!!!

STOP!!!
Dun click the back button u r on the right blog!!! Hahaha!!! Was sooo bored yesterday so I change my blog again!!! Guess this is the 4th time already!! Hehehe!! Now u know how bored I am?

As usual I am in school now!! All because of this FYPJ thing I can't go for the FRESHMAN camp [survivor]!!! Cool rite survivor camp leh heard tt they had prepare a lot of games and u will get very dirty during the camp!! Wow I love this kind of camp man!!! [I know some of u must be thinking mad but its very fun wat!!] Hahahaha!! Tooo bad I can't go!! =( Guess God knows tt after Sunday I will get a backache [guess is becoz of the blading, I fell remember... Can't really move man!! Butt hurts, waist hurts so only 1 word "OUCH"!!] so he dun allow me to go for camp!!! Hahaha! If not when I come back frm camp is even worse!! For those who are going for the camp ENJOY yrself k!! Must tell me the details when u all cum back!! I am waiting!!! Hehehe!

Yeah I got water baptize today!! So happy!! Really excited yesterday couldn't slp!! Not only becoz of water baptism another reason is becoz my cousins are cuming to witness my water bap. One of my friend cant remember who say I very funny cousins come and see me I so excited!! Hahaha!

Lucky they made it on time to witness it I was praying tt they will come on time!! In my heart was like "where are they, reach anot yet... shit its gonna be my turn soon" Hahaha!! Really panic man! But was really very happy to see them sorry to make you guys run!! Hehe!! Oh my aunts too they came just to congratulate me I am sooo touch!! Was very surprise to see t-kwan didn't know tt she will cum!! Hehehe!! Tears starts to roll down after tt coz I was sooo touch!! Hahaha!! If u all happen to read this thx u soooo much for cuming!! Thx to my church friends too for all the encouragement!! Xie Xie! [Sound like I got some award] Hahaha!!

After the water bap went to blade with Aipeng, Jo-n, Eunice, Huimei... Guess what I fell 3-4 times all on the same side of my butt!! Now got 2-3 blue black on my butt!! OUCH!! Hahaha!! Although I got bruises all over but then I still enjoy myself! Hehehe!!Will never forget this day 13 JUNE 2004!! (o"o)

REALLY ENJOY MYSELF TODAY!!!

Yeah its Saturday again!! My head is spinning now! Can't take my medi coz I haven eaten anything yet! Going to meet my mama for lunch later coz she has been nagging!! After tt will be going for service.
I am going for water baptism tml! Just know abt the water baptism yesterday!! So its kinda rush to choose a name for myself... In the end I choose Joelle = Joel found this name from the net [Btw its a girl's name]. Hehehe! So from tml onwards I am Denice Joelle Chua Hwee Yee. Hahaha!! Its doesn't match ar sound sooo weird!!! I shall stop here, update u guys again.... Tk cr!

MC
Wanted to blog yesterday but couldn't access to the blogger webbie!! Anyway not feeling well went to see the doctor yesterday and it cost "41" bucks.... Sooooo expensive right! Heart pain man 41 bucks can buy sooo many things...I got 2 days mc so was resting at home yesterday and today!! Was really slping the whole day yesterday coz of the medi [most of them cause drowsiness]! Feel like a jelly now think is because I sleep too much! ok shall stop here!! Tk cr n miss ya!

Here I am again..... Didn't wan to cum to school today coz was having a headache this morning. Nose block cant smell anything,just like an old granny [cough like 1, sound like 1 coz my voice change] Hahaha!! But no choice I still drag myself here!! Coz if I dun go to school I have to go c a doctor to get a mc. Hai.... SIAN!!!! See how maybe I really cannot tahan then I will leave school early to get a mc for today and tml ....

Hmmmm.... Got presentation next week [abt what we have done so far n the progress in our project]... I have been thinking back I didn't really do much leh!! Coz its either the program doesn't work or the software doesn't work. I am like being cursed coz at 1st my program will work but then when I go to school the next day it has lots of error. Weird rite [I also dun have any idea y]???? Got to continue doing my work liao!! Tk cr n miss ya! (o"o)

I am back!!!
Was back yesterday!! Though was very tried [lack of slp] but it was great!! Has loads of fun!!! Learn quite alot from the camp!! Didn't get to shop lah but then I learn a valuable lesson of how to be a good disciple of God!! Hehe!! Anyway I am in school now!! Got to face reality again!! Hai... I am sick,got slight fever yesterday but today feeling better already [nose still stuck, voice still remain sexy Hahaha!].... Keke I got to start working on my project liao!! Arrrrrg I am stuck again [dunno how to do]!! I HATE this man!!!

CAMP
Hahaha!! I am sooo excited now!! Coz I going over to 1 of my fren hse to say over nite then the next day is camp liao!! Will be back on Sunday!! Dun miz me too much yah!! Hahaha! Tell u guys abt the camp wen I cum back!! Tk cr n cya!!

WASTING OF TIME
As usual I am in school! Downloading this program call "MySQL" in Linux! That makes it extra difficult to download!! Arggg after I download the program it cant work! So sickening lor! Ask tutor he say "Denice u should try know".... I dunno then ask wan rite wat the *@%^! Opps!! Hehehe!! I spend the whole afternoon solving it yest and now I am trying it again!!! So I guess I will waste my time again!!! If he help at least I can start on my work already!! Always like tt what is tutor for man!! Cannot ask how to do!!! God HELP me!!!

Complains
Hahaha!! I realize tt ever since I start school I have been complaining!! =) But no choice I cant complain it to anyone sooo I complain it to the computer lor!! Hahaha!! Yeah I going for my tea break liao!! Tata!!!

Tired
I am sooo tired now! My eyes wanna close already!! Anyone has toothpick?? Hahaha!!! Have been trying to make my program work! Sian!! I sux at java and I still have to face it everyday but lucky I only have to go to school for only 3 days!! YEAH!!! Soooo happy! Hehehe....But then after this week I am back to the working hours!!! Keke this attitude is totally wrong I am suppose to love school! But who will right unless yr close friends are there just like secondary school..... Still studying but its different coz in secondary school at least I study with joy! Environment in poly is totally different! PRESERVER DEN PRESERVER!!!!!

First letter to mummy!!
I wrote a letter for my mum!! Hehe!! Sooo scary didn't dare to pass it to her face to face! So I left it on the table b4 I left the hse! Then I msg her to tell her abt the letter!! Stupid rite!!! Hahahaha!!! How coward can I be man.... Hehe! Abt the content of the letter I shall not say!! Hehe!! Coz it just between the both of us! Rite mummy!! Haha! Just hope tt she will be alright after reading the letter.. Love ya mum!!!

When out with Aipeng, Huimei n Jo-n today to watch "shrek"... The show is sooo funny!! Last part sooo cute dragon [donkey's gal friend] brought their kids to find him!! Their kids are soooo cute!!

Yeah!! Camp is dis week!! I am sooo excited abt it!! Another thing is I dun have to go to sch!! Coz it really sux big time!!! Hehe! Hai!! Got sch tml again!! Sometimes I really want to give up!! Coz when I ask the tutor he will either say go find out yrself or I will kena scolding frm him!! [u are an IT student, u should know how to do]. Coz I sux in java n the pple ard me [grp mate....] knows how to do!!! So feel very "STRESS"..... When it comes to programming I really feel like a "LOSER"!!! HAI!!!!!! Really regret putting IT / Bio informatics in my choice for entering poly / yr 3 course!!! Arrrg ... But no choice I cant possibly quit now coz its my last yr already!! I dun want to disappoint my mum!! I have to graduate.... Then after tt then see what I can do!! Coz I really dun wan to work in an IT environment!!! Maybe I will continue studying [dunno what] or work somewhere else [dunno where again].... Guess I have to just leave it to GOD!! Papa up there u will help me rite??

Its the beginning of the day again!! Sian!! Have to wait till 5 then can clock out!! Hahaha! Cant wait for next wk coz got camp and a day off [coz of vesak day]! YEAH!!! Hahahahah!! At least can rest well for 1 day [dun have to wake up sooooo early]!

Went for cg yesterday!! Really had fun!! Play games [sooo funny we are suppose to shout out each others nickname when we have the same cards], praise n worship..... Hai! I got to start doing my work already b4 my tutor see what I am doing!! Hahaha!! SO tk cr!!!

I am sooo sleepy!! Its like 830am only!! Hehehe!! Finally manage to get msn[e-messenger] on Linux!! My partner told me how to!! Hehehe!! Although it is very very slow [takes 5 sec to show what I have type to appear on the screen] at least I get to use it!! Without msn I will die coz I will be bored to death!! Hahaha! At least when I tok to someone time will pass faster!! Hahaha!!

Got cg at esplanade later.... Suppose to plan games with kc!! Hope they will like the game!! Hehe!! This is the 2nd time planning games for cg!! Hahaha!! Hai!! But guess I will be late later,coz if I leave school late again think I will reach around 6++ [cg starts at 530]! Keke got to do my work already!! Tk cr!!!

STRESS n TIRED
Leave school at 5++ today n yesterday!! Hai!!! I have to finish all the things b4 I can leave!! Its just SUX!! Suppose to learn "Linux"!! Got scolding by the tutor today coz I dunno how to operate the tink!! ASS!!! I am going to the library tml to borrow bk on it!! I will show him tt I can do it!! Yes!! I know I can do it!!

PISS OFF!!
I am sooo piss off with my tutor today!! He say "Since u r so enthu in CHRIST, y dun u be enthu in yr work too!!" Becoz of what he say I am gonna learn Linux well!! Anyway I email the head of the department today regarding the camp!! He reply saying "We dun support outside event!! And there is no reason y u are absent frm sch for 6 days"!!
I tell him y not like tt I only go for the church wan tt mean only never attend school for 2 days!! Then he ask me to talk to my tutor!!! Tts y he say tt!! Coz I dunno how to ans the qns he ask me!! In the end I only able to go for the church camp, sentosa wan cant!! =( I still have to make up for the 2 days tt I have miz!!! SICKENING!!!!

First n Second day of SCHOOL!!!
Erm.... 1st day of sch was very tedious!! Was doing research for the whole day [non-stop]!! Its soooo tiring!! We have to find out what our project is all abt!! All the chim chim term!! Can die seeing tt!! But lucky its pair work!!! I wun die sooo fast!! Hahaha!! Ohhh did I mention tt I am the only gal in my grp!! I am surrounded with TALL guys!!

Guess what I am doing now?? I am suppose to figure out what this [click to see] is all abt!! Soooo many numbers see until my eye pain!!! Soooo bored now!! Cant even download msn on this stupid computer!! I dunno how to download also coz I am not using windows!!! I am using this software call linux [Fedora]!! Arrrg not familiar with this program some more!! Tink by the end of this mth I am going to be very sick of computers!! Hahaha!! Coz I am facing it like everyday!!! Frm 830 - 500!! I got to do my work already!! Tk cr!!!!

School SUX
I am in school now!! At the lap doing nothing suppose to search about what my project is abt!!! But I dun understand what is it abt!!! They give chim chim terms!!! I am suppose to do something call "MICROARRAY GENOME MAPPER VISUALIZATION"!! Very chim rite!! I have no idea what this thing is all abt!!! I tink it gonna SUX big time man!!! Only know it is something to do with DNA!! Shit man!! Y am I doing abt DNA stuff!!

Guess what I am suppose to go to school almost everyday!! Yes including SATURDAY!!! Its something like working in an office!!!
Mon - Fri 0830 - 500
Sat 0830 - 100

Can't even wake up late now!! Have to wake up 6 everyday!! Can't be late too!! They will deduct points if we are late!!! 1st hour 1pt, 2nd hour 3pt...... Blah Blah Blah!! Can't even skip school!! Dunno if I am able to go for the camp!!! Coz I ask my tutor just now he say he dunno if this can be a reason for not attending school!! But he will check for me!! Really pray I am able to go!!!

Just came back frm my cousin's place!! Had a great time today!! Finally meet up after sooo long!! Met them at JP[Jurong Point], had lunch there we ate cai fan!! Guess what we all had stomachache!! Hahaha!! Wonder if its becoz of tt cai fan or was it just coincidence!! Hehe!!

When to this place call "Gone Fishing" its a cafe!! Somewhere near their place!! Cool place!! Its a place where u can really relax but its better if the pple there could talk softer!! Hahahaha! Coz we could hear every single thing they are talking abt!! Hahaha!!

How I wish we could do these everyday!! Hahaha!! Sooo fun!! Tok crap, laugh at stupid jokes......Blah Blah Blah.... But I know we can't, have to wait till we retire or sumtink!!! Hahaha!! Coz by tt time we would be soooo free!!!

Took the wrong bus
Meet my sis to go shop for shoe today.... Meet her at "TBP" [Tiong Bahru Plaza] to take a bus to queentown coz its faster this way I guess!!! But we took the bus frm the wrong side!! We ended up somewhere near bugis!! Hahaha!! Suppose to reach queenstown in maybe half an hours but we took an hour ++ to reach there!!! We should have taken 195 instead!!! How blur can we get man!! All becoz of DELIA CHUA!!!

Feet Too Big
Hai... Didn't manage to get my shoe coz my leg is too big!! They dun have my size!! I just realize tt my shoe size for sport shoe is 8.5 and not 8.... Very big huh!! Stupid actually tot I can get the 1 at taka but they onli have 8.... 8.5 no more stock!! Tink I am not fated to get a pair of new sport shoe!!!

TROY

When out with pea today!! Then happen to see Sharon at the orchard mrt station!! Hahaha!! Anyway went to watch "Troy" after our lunch wanted to catch "Dawn of the death" but they dun have it!! =(

Its a 2 n a half hour show, seat until my butt pain!! Hahaha!! But the show was not bad!! Worth watching is all I can say!! Can't say too much abt the story, if not those who haven watch will cum after me!! Hahaha!! But I tink its kinda lame coz 1 of the reason they go for war is becoz of a woman!! Make sooo many pple suffer...

Exercise

Went for care group just now!! Today's care group is to play badminton!!! Had a great time coz badminton is my all time favorite!! Always wanted to join badminton as my cca but because of all the reasons [team full, school no badminton cca] I did not get to join it!!

My arm are aching already!! Hehehe!! Too long never exercise liao!!! Tink I am just getting older!! Hahaha!!

Usual Self

As usual I am rotting in front of the computer!! I got nothing to do!! Usually I will play computer games but I just doesn't seems to find any nice game on the rack!! Its time to get new games!! Any recommendation?

Have been feeling very reluctant!! Dun feel like doing anything!! I have been like tt for the pass few days!! Arrrg..... What's wrong with me?? Only God knows!! I can deceive everyone but not him!! =(

Woke up at 630am today to go to school!! When I reach school then I realize I am not suppose to be there coz the preparation is for those tt are posted to SIT [School Of informatics Technology]..... Where I am posted to SCL [School Of Chemical Life Science] Dunno y the tutor will email me also! He think I am very free is it!! Actually I am very free lah!! Hahaha!! Hmmmm.... Waste my time to travel frm "BOON LAY" to "YIO CHU KANG".

Just reach home actually!! Accompany my fren for awhile then cum back already!!! I am soooo far away frm my fren coz she will be doing her FYPJ at the SIT block while I will be at the SCL block!! Nvm life goes on!! 6 more days school reopen already!! Hai!!! Not prepared yet!! Hai.... When tt day comes then see how!!! Can't do much also!! Will just wait..... Keke Update u guys again..... Tk cr!!

Hai.... Got to go to sch tml!! For the preparation of FYPJ [final year project], its frm 830-500 I have no idea what they are going to do!! Only 2 person including me frm my class do FYPJ 1st!!! Wonder if I will be in the same lab / class as my friend!! She will be leaving early tml then I will be alone!!! =( So sian!!! Got to meet new pple!! Pray tt everything will go smoothly!! Hope tt I will get to meet pple who are crappy or pple tt I can get along with!!!

Dun really know what to blog also!! Coz I dun have much to say!!! Just feeling kinda weird.... Dun really feel like toking!! When pple tok to me then I will tok other then tt I was kinda quite!!! Hmmmm..... dun like the feeling I am having now!!! Its driving me crazy!!! Very very sian....... I muz find sumtink to do to keep me busy so tt I wun tink abt it!!! Anyway I will just leave it to him hope tt everytink will be alrite..... Can't do much also!!!

I am sooooo BORED!!! Got nothing to do and I dun feel like toking!! Dun wanna slp coz I cant slp!!! I just dun feel like doing anything now!! =( Dunno y also!! Just dun have the mood to do anything!!! Kekeke!!!! Tok to you guys again!!! TATA!!

Sooo IRRITATING
hmm.... Got nothing to do today so decided to change the design of my blog getting sian of it!! Hahaha!! Very different frm the previous wan though!!!

Hai.... Guess I got insomnia!! Didn't slp well for the pass few wk!! Couldn't fall aslp at night!!! Then the next morning will have very bad headache!! I dun think I am stress maybe last week coz of exams.... But now?? I am relaxing at hm n still got the same problem!!

Something very weird happen today!! Hehe!! Becoz there is this idiot [my dad's fren] who keep calling my hse!! Frm 7++ to 9++ [non-stop]!!! Dad was slping so I have to pick up the ph!! My goodness cant even slp!! Feel like plucking out the ph line!!! Was sooo irritated so I hang up the ph so he couldn't call but guess WAT the ph still ring!!! Arrrrrrggg!!! Was thinking if I was dreaming!! Scary rite hang up still can call!!! Just another irritating guy!!!!

YEAH!!! My exams are over!! Finally can rest although its only a week but I still appreciate it!! Hahaha!! Got to go for the training for FYPJ [final year project] on the 17th n 18th..... Its from 8.30-5.00!! What are they going to teach man!! Have to stay in school for sooooo long!!!

Oh btw found out what course I am gonna take in yr 3 already!! Its BIO INFOMATICS!!! I am going to do DNA n stuff!! My goodness DNA!!! Hahaha!

This is for CHARISSA!!!

You wanna see picture on my blog rite?? Here you go! HeeHee!!

Soooo happy coz tml is Tuesday [my last paper]!! YEAH!!! Really cant wait for tml to come! After that can really rest for like 1 week....

After that must stress over final year project already and I have no idea wat I am suppose to do for the project n where I am suppose to go when school starts... The tutor didn't inform us at all!! That is one thing I really hate abt poly.... u have to find out everything by yrself!!! Sux man!!! Think thats all i wanna say!! Tk cr n miz u guys......

My goodness I am soooo tired!! Haven been slping well for the past few weeks!! Cant slp!! And I fell asleep only at 4++ last night!!!

Oh went for care grp yesterday!! There is a restructure in the unit!! I am in NYP4 and guess who the leader is?? Its "AP"!! Wow!! She is now my sherpherd!! Abit weird coz suddenly frm sis becum nanny!! Then my nanny becum my granny [Jo-n, granny monkey] Hahaha!!! AP we can do it de!! We will be the 1st to break 10 rite!! Haha!! Must win granny monkey's grp!!! Hehe!! I cant go for service today coz I got to have lunch with my aunt n granny coz of mother's day!! =( Guess today's service will be great coz its a service for mother's day!! We are suppose to invite our mum to church!! There will be a drama called "A weekend with Mandy Wong"!! Too bad I will miss it!!

Hmmm.....Going to meet my mum soon!! But lucky the place they are having lunch is only at "JP"! Come back still got to study!!! Nvm still got 2 days more.... must perserver!!! After that can relax already but only for 2 wk I think coz 24th May start school already!! Didn't study last night coz was watching TV!! Hehe!! Got to study real hard went I come back later!!! NO TV..... Hehe!! Cant wait for exam to finish coz can go watch movie!! Hehe!!! Guess I got to go!! Update with you guys again!! Tata!!

Haven blog for quite sometime coz of exams!! My comp kena virus and I just had it fix today!! That stupid worm again!!! Nothing much happen for the past few days!!! Only thing I do was study study n study!!! The only day I went out was last Saturday!! Went for service!! Last Saturday was the last day for sharon n jamie to join us coz they will be transferring to NP!! We are suppose to affirm sharon coz jamie was not there!!! It was sooo funny coz everyone was so shy to affirm her!! Haha!!

Anyway had my 1st paper yesterday!!! 2 more to go!!! Next paper will be on Thursday!! Dun have the mood to study!! Haven been studying today!!! Will have to kambateh after this!!!

Nothing much for me to blog!! Have been studying!! Having my first paper on Monday!!! Was writing notes for 1 module n I realize tt I got quite a lot to memorise!!! Only 1 and I am dying!! How abt the rest!! Hai!! Really pray tt GOD will give me wisdom and a brain tt can store all the stuff tt I am suppose to memorise!!! Hahaha!! Anyway wish all my friend who are having exam GOOD LUCK.......

I had a great time yest!! Got care group at istana park!! Cool rite!! A nice place to hang out with friends.... We play games organize by me!!! I had to join in the game too coz huimei was late!! Guess wat my group lost then we have to do forfeit ...... Hahaha we are suppose to choose between hip hop n gu niang dance... Of COURSE I choose hip hop!! Hahaha!! I was suppose to follow wat jo-n ask me to do!! She did FREEZE [break dance]. Sounds difficult!!! But I manage do it!!! Fast learner ar!! After cg [care group] wen for prayer meet then service......


I got to start studying already coz exam are round the corner!! Just realize tt my 1st paper is next Monday how blur can I get!! Lucky I found it out just now!! If not I am dome!! I have been very blur n forgetful nowadays! I dunno y! Some of my friend say its because of the radiation from my HP!! Coz I put it beside my bed when I slp!! OR is it because I stay at home for to long tts y I cant think properly?? Nobody knows!!! Can someone help me!!! (o"o)

Got an email from the school today!! Saying tt I have to start school on the 24th of May!! Coz I will be doing FYPJ [final year project] 1st..... n it starts on the 24th may... which means 1wk after exam I have to go back to school to do project liao!!! Stress Stress Stress.... The problem is only 2 person [me n my fren] frm my class will be doing FYPJ 1st... Just pray tt we will be in the same grp!!!


Hmmm..... Its Saturday tml!! Got care group n I am suppose to organize games for them!!! 1 tink bad abt organizing games is tt I cant join them I have to c them play!!! =( Anyway hope everything will turn out fine..... Coz 1st time organize games.... Hahaha!! Hope they will like it!!! [if dun like keep it to yrself k?] Hahaha!!!! Nothing much for me to blog already!!! Ciaoz!!!

Hmmm.. Haven blog for 3 days!!! Its time for me to update!! Nothing much happen actually!! Have been staying at home since mon!! Coz this week is presentation week. I only have presentation on Thursday, 2 some more!!! And tt is tml sooo scary!

Was rotting at home coz I got no where n nothing to do!!! [Yah rotting again!!] But I did my chores on Monday!! Haha! Clean my room, Mop the floor, Wash clothes........ Haha!!! Good rite!! Tuesday watch TV for the whole day!!! Then here I am blogging!!! Guess tts all!!

Wow!! Had a great day!!! Saturday always pass [time] sooo fast!!! Went for service today!! Then after went to have dinner at Cuppage Food Court [the same place we will have dinner after service]!! Hmmmm after tt me, aipeng , sharon n jamie went to Clark Quey!! Wen there to walk walk!! Nothing much actually.... The only thing they have there is food food n more food.... Hahaha!! Guess wat, I fell down!! Hahaha!! Soooo clumsy!! We had no where to go after tt so we walk all the way from Clark Quey to city hall mrt station!! But we had a enjoyable time rite???


Ohhhh u all know wat!!! Remember I told u tt I am afraid tt I will fail my ICA for one module?? Hahahaha I pass man!! Cant believe it I actually got a "C" !!! Yeah!!! Sooo happy!!!

Yeah!!! Its Saturday!! I am in school now!! Had my Quiz just now and it SUX!!! Hahaha!! So difficult lor...Dun know how to do!! Killing time now coz meeting AP n Jo-n only at 1.30. Its only like 11+ now!! Then the lab closing at 1230!! Guess I am going to rot again!!! Y?? I am always rotting!!! Hahahaha!!

Isn't this amazing!!!

A Day at JP [Jurong Point]

Got no electricity at home today!! [PUB officer will only cum between 6 - 10pm to fix it] Can't go home [actually dun wan to go home]! Coz it will be damn hot if I am at home!! NO fan, NO aircon, NO tv, NO computer!! Life is miserable without electricity!! I want my electricity back!!! Hahaha!!

Finish school at 2+pm, sooo since no electricity I stay at JP almost the whole day!!! Was rotting there!! Hahaha!

1) Went to the VCD shop
2) Hungry so went to MAC [eating very slowly]
3) Stay at MAC to rot till 5+pm [luckily I brought my notes, can study]
4) Went to the library to study

Was at MAC, 2 primary school kid sitting beside me!! They were taking abt the guys or rather boys in their class [how cute are they n stuff]!! Overheard their conversation!! Hehe!! Not suppose to but they talk until sooo loud so no choice they forced me to listen!! Haha! Sooo young talk abt guys already!! They are suppose to stay at home to study know!! Haha!!

Then this gal sitting opposite keep staring at me!! WATs her problem!!! Am I weird or was there something wrong with my face?? Hahaha!! Sooo dun care abt her, stare then stare lor!! Who cares!! After all these, I started studying!!! [Hey I studied!!! Haha!] Went to the library to study coz I couldn't concentrate [too noisy]!! Was soo quite tot at last I could have a peaceful place to study!! But who knows more n more kids came to the library!!! Sooooo irritating!! Arrrrr!!! But nvm I tolerate!!! Haha!! Coz I manage to study also !!! Tink tts all I wanna say!! Update u guys again!! Tk cr yah!!

This is SOOO funny!!!

A woman goes to her boyfriends' parents' house for dinner.
This is to be her first time meeting the family, and she is very nervous.
They all sit down and begin eating a fine meal.
The woman is beginning to feel a little discomfort, thanks to her nervousness and the broccoli casserole.
The gas pains are about making her eyes water.

Left with no other choice, she decides to relieve herself a bit and lets out a dainty fart.
It wasn't loud, but everyone at the table heard the poof.
Before she even had a chance to be embarrassed, her boyfriend's father
looked over at the dog which had been snoozing at the woman's feet and
said in a rather stern voice, "Skippy!"

The woman thought, "This is great!" and a big smile came across her face.
A few minutes later, she was beginning to feel the pain again. This time,
she didn't even hesitate. She let a much louder and longer fart rip.

The father again looked at the dog and yelled, "Dammit Skippy!"
Once again the woman smiled and thought "Yes!"
A few minutes later, the woman had to let another one rip.
This time, she didn't even think about it.
She let rip a fart that rivaled a train whistle blowing.

Once again, the father looked at the dog with disgust and yelled,
"Dammit Skippy, get away from her before she shits on you!"

Jiminy Cricket look alike!!
Remember who Jiminy Cricket is?? The cricket frm Pinocchio!! The picture is below!!



Hahaha!! I saw a guy who look like Jiminy Cricket yesterday [was in the train alone]!! He was sitting opposite of me!! I controlled my laughter sooo funny!! So comical!! Hee!! Keke I know I am bad but he look soo cute rite!! Hahaha!! How I wish I had a camera phone... So I can take, then show u guys!! Haha !!

Not in the mood!!

hmmm... Nv go to school today!! Got a quiz coming up this Saturday!! I am suppose to study but then I dun have the mood to do SO!! How?? Nvm after I post this msg I will try to read through the notes!!! But I guess I will end up watching TV!! Hahaha!! It always happen this way! Hai..... God pls help me!! Hahaha!!! I have to pass this paper!! If not I am dead!! Fail the previous test by 8marks.... Have been failing my tests this semester.... Dun mistaken I nv fail all my tests, overall only 2 frm different modules!! But still very sad coz it will pull my overall marks down!! I dun have confident in the exams so I have to score well for my tests n assignments [overall marks = 40% of tests n assignment, 60% of exam]...... I dun wan to take sub paper [coz its more difficult]!! Guess I will stop here got to study liao [hope I will] Hahaha!!

Finally!!!!!

I am feeling so tired now!! How I wish I had a bed in front of me!! Have been staring at the computer since 12 I tink!! But its all worth it!! Coz I finish my project [my part] liao....Although its not perfect but at least it works!! I am not going to touch this stupid project anymore coz I am very sian of it already.... Haha! Hope I am able to pass! As long as I pass can liao!!! YEAH!!!

A Breakup Letter

This is a love letter from a boy to a girl....
However,the girl's father does not like him and
want them to stop the relationship......
So, the boy wrote this letter to the little girl.

1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."

So bad..... However, the boy told the girl before to
"READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning only to
read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13......
So...
Please read it again!....it's so smart n sweet...

A lesson learned

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.

In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this.

He proceeded to crumple the $20 dollar bill up.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.

"Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his
shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still Wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, we have all learned! a very valuable lesson.

No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not
decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by
the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your
value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who
DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE
ARE.

You are special - Don't EVER forget it."


** Soooo fren out there no matter how "dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased" u are I still LOVE ya!! Hee!! **

Craziness is in the air!!!

Dun ask me wat the title means!! Coz I also dunno!! Hahaha!! Hmmm..... Time pass soooo fast!! Next wk is presentation wk liao..... Have to finish my projects by this wk!! And we [grp mates] are all kinda stuck!! Opps!! God pls help us!!! Pple out there pray for us k?? =(

The following wk is exams already!! Dun have confidence in the paper I am taking this semester!! Die...... Keke I am not suppose to say die!! I muz say I can "DO" it!!! Hee!!

Exam time table:

03-MAY
(MON) IT1205 OPERATING SYSTEMS

06-MAY
(THU) IT2116 SOFTWARE ENGINEERING

11-MAY
(TUE) IT2155 HUMAN COMPUTER INTERACTION

Great Conversation
Wow really had a great conversation after soo long.... Was toking to AP yesterday or rather this morning.. We tok from like 12++ to 4 am. Tts long huh!! So engross tt we didn't know the time!! Hmmm... after the conversation I realize tt actually I don't really know the things tt happen around me...Haha!! Guess I am just not observant or sensitive enough!! Hee!! But I really thank God for giving me a friend like AP!! Coz she will tell me wat happen n stuff... Then I will like "Ohhh! Really I didn't know"! Haha! She will start saying "u everything also dunno wan lah! So not observant!" Haha!! If dun have AP I will know nothing.... So dunno wat I will do without her!! [opps abit the mushy] Haha!! Keke just wanna say tt I love ya lots!!


I guess HE change me!

I think God really change me in some ways!!!

Before:
I dun express my feelings! As in I keep everything to myself!! Only I know abt it!

After:
whatever I feel like saying I will say!! Coz I scared I will regret!! [Eg, if I miz or love tt person I will say! But not in front of tt person coz I will shy!! haha] So I guess I improve!! Yeah!!

EASTER SERVICE

I am sooo happy today coz I get to meet up with NYP3! Hehe! We had lunch together! Actually got care group but then cancelled! Today's service was great!! The court scene was sooo funny....Its abt suing God! I dun mean suing God if funny. Its the actor n actresses tt are funny! After tt got song presentation by sis Shirley! She sang "WHY" this song can make yr heart melt! Hehe!! I almost cry!! ALMOST ar... After service went to makan [eat] with aipeng, sharon, jo-n, huimei, jamie, huiling and shu qi!! Usually we will go walk around in Orchard but for today we decided to stay at the foodcourt to talk instead!! I really had a great time today! Really thank God for giving me friends like you pple!! [NYP3] Love ya guys lots..... Waiting for next Saturday to come!! Hehe!! Coz can meet up with you pple and got service too!! Yeah! So meanwhile take good care of yrself yah!! Cya next week!! =p Last but not least "HAPPY EASTER"!!!

Say SORRY b4 u regret


Read on:

Last night you and your best friend had a quarrel.
You decided not to talk to her the next day.


She smiles at you.
You grind your teeth at her.


She tells her friends nice things about you.
You spread Bad rumors about her.


She tries to come and talk to you.
But you push her aside.


She thinks you are a great friend.
You think she is a terrible friend.


She writes nice notes to you, telling you the best times you had together.
You write all the bad.


Deep down you know she's sorry.
But all you have is hate.


The next day at school you find a note on your desk. It reads:



Dear Isabella,

I tried to tell you yesterday,
But you didn't let me speak,
I tried to tell you good things,but you were afraid to hear them.
I tried to smile at you,
to take away the hate.
But now it's time to tell you, even though it's a bit late.
That I am dying.
I have a bad tumor in my stomach and it is getting bigger. I'm sorry to tell you that I wont be able to go to school today.
I wrote this today in the hospital.
My time is up.
I'm sorry I should have told you earlier.
I'm really sorry about our argument,you are such a great friend.
I promise tt I will watch over you,

Lots of love

Katie.

Isabella ran to the hospital to tell her she was sorry,
But saw only her mum.


She was crying. Down on her knees she prayed,
for her daughter Katie to come back.


Isabella was too late. She wish Katie could have told her earlier.


Sad story huh!! All friends have their ups and downs, and sometimes you need to say sorry.
Don't wait for him / her to do it first.
Because you never know what could happen.

Telephone conversation

Got dis frm char! Kinda funni!! Read it :


Lee Sum Wan : Hello can i speak to Annie Wan

Mr Sori : Yes u could speak to me.

Lee Sum Wan : No, i want to speak to Annie Wan!

Mr Sori : You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Lee Sum Wan : Im Sum Wan. And i need to talk to Annie Wan! Its urgent.

Mr Sori : I know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone! But whats this urgent matter about?

Lee Sum Wan : Well just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured
and now Noe wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now Avery Wan is going to the hospital.

Mr Sori : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital from the accident that is'nt an urgent matter!
You may find this hilarious but i dont have time for this!!!

Lee Sum Wan : You are rude. Who are you?

Mr Sori : Im Sori.

Lee Sum Wan : You should be sorry. Now give me your name!

Mr Sori : Im Sori!!

Lee Sum Wan : I dont like your tone of voice Mr and i dont care, give me your name!

Mr Sori : Look lady, I told you already Im Sori! Im Sori!! Im SORI!!! you didnt even give me your name!

Lee Sum Wan : I told u before i'm Sum Wan! Sum Wan!!! You better be careful my father is Sum Buddy.
And my uncle holds a very big position in the company. He is Noe Buddy.

Mr Sori : Oh i'm so scared(sarcastically). Look i dont care about yr uncle he's a nobody. Everybody thinks his top dog
and holding an important position in the company.

Lee Sum Wan : No, Avery Buddy just married my aunt. And Avery Buddy doesn't work there.

Mr Sori : Like i said i dont care which one of yr aunt screws everybody and i also know that not everybody works here! Jeez!!!

Lee Sum Wan : Wheech Wan is my sis!

Mr. Sori : I don't know which one is yr sis! Why in gods name u think i do!?
Look i got work to do and if i'm feeling mischievious i'll broadcast it on the P.A system ! saying.

"Attention, someone called and said that anyone s brother just got involved in an accident.
But not to worry no one got injured and no one was sent to the hospital.
But everyone is going to the hospital anyways. The father maybe a somebody but if u're their uncle, u're a nobody.
"how bout that!?

Toot....Toot....Toot.................

hmmm... Nothing much happen today n yest!!! Just another day in campus!!

1. Have lessons
2. Do project after school...
3. Go home!!

This is wat i did for yest!! My life is so boring rite? Haha!! Boring person led a boring life makes sense ? Haha!!
But today got ECG!! Tink jo gonna sing for us later!! Hehe!!

Looking forward to Friday n Saturday! Friday got no sch... Saturday got care group n "EASTER" service.... Going to have para para, dance presentation n a drama [EASTER service]. Anyone wan interested? Hehe!!

Bad Day!!!

Had only 1 class today n I was late reach at 1220 instead of 12... But luckily my friends tk my attendance for me!! After lesson we decided to stay back to do our project but guess wat we were chase out of the lab by this stupid tutor, who doesn't allow other student to stay in the lab!! Not as if they need the whole lab!! We call her KNS 3!! Haha!! So in the end we went home without doing our project!!!

Not only tt the screw on my spec came off just now! The problem is I can't find the screw in the kitchen!! Shit!! But luckily the old spec screw could fit! Really damn unluckily today!! =( Just realize tt I really can't live without my spec!! Can't see a thing!! Still remember when I was young I always wanted to wear spec!! STUPID!!! Y would I wan to wear spec!! Tts weird huh!! Hahaha!

Baby Blue

For pple who love baby blue!! Love them!!!

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Weird Combination
Having diarrhea, was thinking of wat did i eat just now!! Guess it was the curry puff or was it the milk or the biscult tt jo gave me?? hahaha!! I guess i only can blame it on myself coz i ate curry puff with milk!! Milk with curry puff?? Combination abit weird hor!! haha!! Just wanna make myself full so i decided to get the milk!! Guess i will nv eat curry puff with milk again man!!

DaDa is leaving!!!
Da will be leaving Singapore to Melbourne for further studies in Deakin University [masters] !! I am happy for her but sad to c her leave!! =( But u will be bk in 1yrs time rite? Nvm 1 yr very fast i n di will wait for u to finish yr masters then we can meet up n havour again!! Rite di?? Will miz u!! Meet up soon k!! Mgs or call me to c wen u are free so we can meet up k!!! I will sure make tt day free!! No matter how busy i am i will make time for u guys!! hehe!! Love n miz ya!!!

Monday Blues!!
Woke up this morning with a headache....Luckily my class start late coz morning classes are cancelled!! YEAH!! I have to reach sch by 2pm coz i have to do the stupid project of my which doesn't seems to finish! =( But i really hope tt i will get it done by this week, hope its possible!! Pple out there pray for me k? hehe!!

Cousin leaving??
Deakin University has confirm a place for da...Was tt a good or a bad news? Guess she is tinking of tt too!!! Was wondering if she is going over!! But most prob u will rite!! Through i dun wanna c her leave but its for her own good!! So no matter wat yr decision is muz tell me k?? Will keep u guys in my prayers!! Love ya!!!

A day at home
Hmmmm.... Was rotting at hm! This is wat i did the whole day!!

1. Woke up quite late, coz slept late last nite! [i know u guys will say dun bluff coz i doesnt mk any difference if u slp early] (o"o)
2. Watch tv almost the whole day!!
3. Wen to my room at ard 4 coz wanted to read the bible! But did not coz i was tinking/dreaming of sumtink.
4. Fell asleep after tt! Hahaha! Dreamt of sumtink very funni!!
5. Woke up ard 6pm!
6. Had dinner at 7pm!
7. Watch tv after tt!!
8. Here i am typing this message!!