Time really files one month has pass, and sometimes I am still feeling down because of some reasons. "Did I really make the right decision?" I always ask myself that. Everyday I have been trying very hard to forget and get myself occupy with stuff so I don't have to think so much. Luckily I have my new toy [PSP] with me, it keeps me occupy when I have nothing to do / bored.

Doing/seeing the same old thing over and over again is very tiring. Sometimes I just feel like giving up but having friends around me make me wanna preserver on. Having them to care about me, me crapping and cracking jokes with them really make my day. Though sometimes is just laughing at something stupid it still make yr day coz at least on that day itself you laugh/smile. =P "A smile a day make your sadness goes away".... Haha

Have you ever experience feeling weird being with a person alone. Not that he/she is a stranger but is someone that you are familiar with. I don't feel like talking to that person at all but sometimes seeing him/her alone makes me feel back. Like will find him/her poor thing. But when you thing of the things he/she did you will just hack care. Have been seeing him/her quite often nowadays. One thing its good but the other I am just not used to it. Its like so weird like why he/she is here how I wish he/she is out or something. I know its bad to think this way but I just can't help it.

Just hope that:

• One-day things will get better.
• I wouldn't care about thing or bother so much about it anymore?
• All the things wouldn't affect me anymore
• I will just take things easy and hack care about any other things.

How I wish I were still a kid where I don't have to handle so much things myself. Remember one of my friend said "If life doesn’t suck it wouldn’t be life anymore". Haha... True?? All right guess I shall stop here am I kind of emotional today? Haha... Its ok la huh let me be emotional for a day also wouldn't die. =P

Went to the premiers of "The Holiday" with my friend.. Its special coz its in Sentosa - Palawan Beach. They have this event called "Movie by the beach"... Watching movie by the beach, under the stars its sooooo cool man. Not a bad experience. Price is around the same just that you have to pay $3 for the admission. Guess it will be out next week. Go catch it.....

Oh my friend got me this when she is back frm Taiwan... Its mashmallow..Cute looking huh, cant bear to eat it... =P

Boring, am in the office now… It’s Saturday and I have to work. Can it be more boring not?? And it’s kinda obvious that I have got nothing to do that is why I can blog during office hours right… Must act busy. Like I am typing lots of stuff (typing in “Microsoft Words”… Haha) but actually I am typing a blog entry. Its already 10am I have like 2 hrs more to go…

So tired only had like 4 hrs of sleep can… Just feel like slacking at home. Haha… I think I am back to my old self. Lazy to go out rather stay home to rot. LOL
I think its cool to go back to my old self, which mean I am able to let some things go and carry on with my own life. Have to adapt the life without you. Trying my very best and I guess it’s getting better day after day… and hopefully / eventually it will be gone.

=P Ohhhh know what I finally got my PSP (Sharon: you cant irritate me anymore - “Sorry the PSP has run out of stock”)… I bought it?? Nah where got so much cash to spend on that right… I kind of got it for free, because of Singnet. Sign up for the 2-year contract. It was a promotion period, so happen that my contract has ended so mind as well right. Have Internet access cum a free PSP…


I’m loving it

Is this month the sick month or what I had just recover from SCF (in case u have no idea what is it SCF = sore throat, cough, flu), and now the flu virus is back again… How sucky can it be huh?

Lucky me... Having friends treating me this week. 1st it was pizza, then it was cafe cartel.... Thanks man you know who you are... =P Love ya... Haha love yaa not because u treat me is becoz of u being there for me...

Had been a slacking week for me. Had like nothing to do in the office... Am like bored to death can... So funny my fren was trying to pour hot water into her bottle (poka bottle) and it strink. Its looks damn weird... Haha... And after tt it gave out smoke or rather poisonous gas.. lol (the bottle melted)... Where got pple put boiling water into poka bottle u tell me. I was like laughing non stop.... This is how the bottle look like:::



Guess i have seen quite abit of funny stuff lately... Was shopping the other day n I saw the fattest mannequin(guess this is how u spell it). Think its the shirt that makes it look fat... haha... Who will buy the shirt u tell me???? lol



ps: please ignore the guy behind...

Had my hair cut on saturday. Its was a $75 worth hair cut. Thats what the voucher says. Its a free thing from citibank. Since its free why not try right.... BUT I look kinda sucky now coz the lady cut till very short. I have to like style my hair everyday. Just not used to neat hair style. Miss my messy hair... Haha....

Oh when for SGH dinner and dance on saturday.... After that went to a pub with my col to have a drink... The atmosphere there is kinda cool. Got live band.. After the whole session, I kinda lost my voice coz we were toking very loudly as we couldnt hear each other (coz of the band). Had a great time with them.... =P

Wonder anyone could help me out with my laptop. My lappy has got something wrong man. First my microsoft words got problem opening till now it haven been solved. Now i cant open my messenger at all. This really sux man... 1st was able to use the messenger version 5.0 but after i got forced to upgrade it to version 6.1 i wasnt able to open the application at all. =(

How sad can it be man.... =( =( And i am down with SCF = Sore throat, Cough, Flu.... Haha new term for that huh SCF.... Hate it man coz this cause me to have headache. Was on MC on tuesday then go back to work on wed. Though had a day to rest but the more I sleep the more tired I get. Have not been going out this week coz of that.... Friends have been asking me to rest at home. Haha... Call me a homely gal NOT. Haha....

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Ahhhh I feel like dying can.... Am like a zombie for the past few days didnt get enough sleep coz I couldnt get myself to sleep. Anyone has any idea how to make me slp?? I am super tired but just cant force myself to slp. If I continue to be like that I will die.

My life is so screwed up.. I was on mc today. Voice sounds weird guess its becoz of cough or something. Next it was because of my assignment which is due on Thursday where I have not started at all. Next is work which I have to drag myself to the office almost everyday. Next was some shitty stuff which I got myself into and I ended it today. But I did not regret making that decision at all from the beginning really. Anyway I was suppose to meet my cousins for dinner then do assignment but I ended up drinking in a pub near paradize centre. Had a whole bottle of hoeggarden to myself. That was the 1st time I finish a bottle. I wasn't drunk but just red as usual.

Just having a very bad headache right now. If my mum where to know I went to drink instead of doing my assignment I will get kill by her or something coz I was sick. Just wanna slp well tonite tts why I finish tt bottle of beer. So gonna die tml coz I have to work. See what I have got myself into?? I am so screwed can.......

I had to do OT yesterday to finish up my work. The “big boss” says I have to send out all the reports by yesterday. Then the problem is I have to help them do a stupid album for dunno which idiot who is leaving SGH. Have to go around asking them for photos – for those faces that are not in. Waste my time doing that by the time I finish that its already 4:40pm. How am I supposed to finish the report by 5:10pm right. SO have to stay back to finish up the crap. Do until very pek chek. Feel like throwing the report on the table and just leave and never to go back again. Do till 650 I think. Was testing out the office camera so took a few shots of my table. This is how my table look like yesterday.

Very messy huh but you think I care "NO". Haha! Messy means I am doing work right? Haha!! Oh as for the foots its a radio. Haha....






Haha!! I skip class on Thursday to go for my secondary school class gathering. Around 17 of us turn up. Was suppose to meet at 6 but most of us were late. It seems that a lot of people are doing OT. Do OT but no OT pay.. Not fair huh they should pay us. Haha.. Anyway we had steamboat at marina bay. The usual hang out place for gatherings. $12 eat all you want. Haha.. But I think the people there are trying to kill us or something the food there is sooo salty or is it because salt is very cheap?

Haha these are some of the photos we took that day.

Guess what I made "Oreo Cheese Cake" just now. Have no idea how it taste like. Haha!! Its not ready yet gotta wait for like 3 hrs before it can be eaten. You must be thinking "DENICE MADE CHEESE CAKE"... Yeah I made it all by myself k. Was in the mood to make something. Has nothing to do anyway... Haha!! Guess my 1st gunea pig will be my sis. lol Will make her try it when its ready. Haha!!



Doesnt loook good but it may taste good right!! LOL

Went our to my cousin place on Sunday. Its my uncle's birthday. They had a theme for the party. Retro for the adults, as for us we have to be in our school uniform. Had so much fun.. Can you imagine my aunties wore school uniform too!! All of us wore and they were like "lets wear it later"!! Haha!! Damn funny!! Will not show it here as not to embarrass them LOL...

These are some of the photos we took... It have been like how long since I wore my school uniform!!

lol... Just came back from "Hong Kong" on monday night. Its was alright good to go for a holiday to get away from work, school .... Took lots of photos like 300++ for the past 5 days... Its like shopping all day man... Legs ache like anything.. Haha!! Gone back to work and I am still in the holiday mood... No mood to work at all man....

Anyway these are some of the photos I took when I was in Hong Kong..

This is the place where i was staying when in Hong Kong


Streets of Hong Kong
lol while having dinner it rain... Tried holding an umbrella while eating your meal??

Interior of Disney Land train. Cute huh!!

Chip and Dale




View of Hong Kong from the peak




Hehe!! I get to play with Tiger Woods... Isnt it cool?? lol


This is pretty cool, you pay him $4 and you get to play chess with him.

Have more pix to post up but kinda lazy. So I shall just stop here.. Shall blog again...

Wanna share something with you. This is what I saw last week along peace center! It says "ON HOLIDAY 17 - 23/07/06 BUSINESS STARTS 24/07/06" Haha!! I think its sooo cool... Cant imagine that the stalls along the pavement will have something like that. I thought it was a newspaper stall. But its not its a "shoe repair stall" saw that uncle on my way to school...

Guess where I went yest?? Haha... Went to the Zoo.. Cool huh how long have yah not been to the Zoo?? Since kindergarden / primary or secondary school?? Its kinda cool going there looking at animals?? Haha.. Did lots of lame things and took lots of lame pictures....


Oh have you seen a proud looking lizard before?? Look at the pix below




It look like its posing for me right!! =P

Oh and do you know something elephant poo can be made into paper, recycled paper!! Its called "elephant dung paper" Look..



Look at how big the elephant foot is!!!



Haha!! I have found a buddy in the zoo? Does it look like me? Haha!!



Sharon found hers too!! =P




Though its a tiring day but I did enjoy myself alot... At the end of the day both of us are soooo tired... Hahaha!! Will go there again when I get my digi cam yeah!! =P

Can you spot the not? Do you think the pic below is taken from chinatown or sentosa??



The answer is "SENTOSA".... I was like so amused when I see this in sentosa... BTW they are china tourist.. Haha!! They are all carrying an umbrella. Peng say it look like a funeral. Haha!!

Anyway went sentosa yesterday to chill out. There are lots of changes... like this weird statue in the middle of nowhere



We went cycling, beach.... Some of the pictures we took



I think this picture is sooo cool!! =P

Oh and this pic she is trying to imitate my smile but she failed. Hahaha!!

Haven blog for a longgg time... =P Have gone missing for a period of time huh!! haha!! Alright shall update on you guys what I have been up to recently.

Haven gone sch for like a month as they have to stop the class due to a change of the lecturer which really sux very badly. Have decided to withdraw my advance dip as I think its a waste of time to study in that stupid school. Have to undergo sooo many trouble just to withdraw. Oh by the way I have not really withdraw it yet becoz they are not paying what they are suppose to. AND know what i am suppose to pay for my lappy which is suppose to be FREE... How horrible can this sch be rite??

Haha alright shall put that aside. Have been stress with work though there isnt sch.. Soooo much work to do. Cant finish my stuff and there is a deadline for it. And the date is drawing near. So the stress level is like thisssssssssssssssssssss high.... Anyway I dun have a choice i cant quit also. If i have the $$ i will just quit this job. What to do poor what. =( Just gotta bear with it till i find another job.

Oh btw i got a new phone, my old one is kinda sucky already buttons all not working properly. So ren was asking me to change it as it was soooo lousy.. Haha So i got this phone

Today really sucks man.... Having a very bad headache after work & was soo piss with the sister[nurse]. I was sooo tired today eyes are all red and stuff still not enough. She came to me this morning and told me that there are changes to the template again. I was sooo piss .... Must be wondering what am i toking abt?

Its like that i was suppose to do up a template and send it to all the wards to ask the sisters[nurses] to key in the information so i can collate some stuff. She [the sister who piss me] ask me to do it on thursday, i was told to finish it and to send it out on monday. As friday was a public holiday i brought home to do. I was almost done with it and i receive a call saying that there are changes to the template which means i have to redo the whole thing. After that i brought home to do again as i cant finish it and guess what the next day i was told that there was changes to the template again. LIKE HOW am i suppose to finish it rite.

That is why i was sooo piss today as i was about to finish she told me there was a change again and i was suppose to finish it like today. She think i am wonder woman / superman?? Like how many wards are there in SGH man. How sickening can she be. Its obvious that i couldnt finish it today so i just left the office. If she were to scold me tomorrow i am sure to shout back at her.

Got this from an email:

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Words of Affirmation:		7
Receiving Gifts:		6
Acts of Service:		4
Physical Touch:		1

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So tired...I am lack of sleep.. =(

CANT WAIT FOR 14th SEPTEMBER..... COUNTING DOWN TO THAT DAT.... =P YEAH......

NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE HOW I AM FEELING, IT JUST SUX TO THE MAX

This week is the start of my new module. Its on 3D animation, this is one module that I am looking forward to, and its also the reason why I took up this course. Its like soo tough. Its interesting / fun BUT tough. Hopefully I am able to survive for this module. This time round I guess I will be super tired as class is frm 730-1030. The lecturer can only make it at that time so I will be home super late. Cant imagine when assignment starts it will be worst... This module takes up alot of energy [for me]... Hahahah!! TO really concentrate and no mistake is to be made if not REDO.... =(

Oh man I am so bored doing that same old thing everyday. Guess I am really not an admin person. I need a job that has to do something-different everyday maybe not everyday but once awhile. If I continue this job my brain cell will be dead before I get my diploma. Other then assignment I don't have to crack my brain that much. Dying of boredom! I want to change my job. Have job also complain don't have also complain dunno what I want.

Cant wait for saturday...Balcony here we come... SDE & SSX the superheros will save the day.... [Hahaha!! so lame so lame sound like some cartoon that i use to watch "mighty mouse"....] Love weekends it means i dont have to work. But sometimes i still gotta work on saturdays... =P

Something funny happen just now... My sis came into the study room and tell me that she found a cockroach in our room. Ask me to catch but I never dare to kill them eversince I watch this movie long time ago...... SO we decided to ask FIFI [my dog] the roach catcher to do the job but she ignore us... How could she.... We cant find it ma so ask her to do it right she ignore us... But I found it in the end n my sis shouted for my mum n that is where FIFI saw the roach and wanted to catch it BUT too late my mum did the job instead. Hahahah!!!

How should I describe yesterday?? Irritated, Fun or .... I don't know... Haha!! Went to Giraffe [a restaurant cum bar at istana].. Guess its just a bad idea to go there huh!! Sorry guys... Wrong decision... Though the atmosphere there is great but.... The journey there was ......[no words to describe] and the food there is kinda expensive. Shall go somewhere nice and cheap next time.... =P

It was a great experience for me yesterday.... Went for life camp yesterday.. You can say its a volunterring work. We are suppose to mentor this group of kids[with attitude problem] age 11-16. My goodness tell you i almost die can.... Haha!! People in my group are those who have the most attitude.... They dont listen to you at all.... BUT thank GOD josie was with me... Hahaha!!! Can you imagine I was playing the game by myself and the rest just disappear??? Can die rite.... Was so tiring... But guess what my group won the 2nd prize can. I and josie was kinda shock... Hahaha!!! But they are cute.... A group of kids who always wants your attention... Guess they have their reason to be like that... You will need lots of PATIENCE to be with them... I mean it...

Anyway after yesterday's "life camp" I am sick today, did not go to work today coz as usual I have a very bad headache... Took another day of mc for tml also.... No harm having another day of mc rite... Hahaha!!! Can have more time to rest or rather more time to do my assignment. Haven touch it for like 3 days already... =(

I am damn bored got nothing to do in the office. You must be thinking this girl is slacking again!! Noooo I am not k ... Just that I have already done my part.... And I have already finish what I am suppose to do just waiting for emails and I am busy again I guess!

Am typing in some nonsense in because I have to look busy? Haha! Happen to see an article online on "10 ways to look busy in the office"! Haha! It's kinda funny though... Heard from my friend once before.... Find it kind of interesting. So do you guys wanna know how to look busy and you are acting dying of boredom? PS: Please don't send it to your bosses! Haha!

Walk really fast when you are going anywhere as to appear something important is going to happen

Look pissed off

Put up a do not disturb sign when you are browsing the web

Open up Microsoft Word and write blog entries to post later (Ain't I doing it right now? Hahaha!!)

Opens up a file, takes a print screens of it and makes it your background. So

when you minimizes everything it looks like stuff is happening on your computer.

Stand up from your desk, take two steps away, pause, and slap hand against forehead. Quickly turn back to desk, sit down, open Notepad and start typing frantically.

Always have an email up and half-written. Doesn't matter to whom.

Make your table as messy as possible. This shows that you are too busy to pack your table. Book up every minutes of your Outlook calendar with something

Have lots of window on your desktop.

Last week was a very bad week for me.... Have been so paranoid / depress because of some stuff dont wanna tok abt it, in case that someone reads it.... It really freak me out man like kena haunt by ghost... Every ring just scares me.... Yeah it has been like that for a week. How scary can that be I almost go crazy and I mean it. But after gointg to the beach twice last wk to calm / relax I feel sooooo much better. Going to the beach is really the best medicine for me. The sound of the sea, the breeze, and the sun. It's a world of my own... Hahaha! It seems like to me.... Sleeping on the beach get some tanning. [This is what i like the most] Yeah finally I get tan maybe abit darker. Haha! How I wish I can go there once a week. Haha!Till then I will blog again...

I am DEPRESS.... You know the word D.E.P.R.E.S.S yeah I am in that stage. I wonder who can help me.... Aipeng say she can but who knows.... But after her hitting my head I think so as I was feeling abit giddy after her hitting.. Sooo I just have say to say YES......

Don't think that I am just crapping away I am REALLY depress.... Till then I will blog again.

Wow have been watching a number of movies recently: Brokeback Mountain, Final Destination 3 and Big Mama's House of all shows I prefer mama's house coz its just soo hilarious.

Hmmm guess my life is in a mess.... Just get sooo frustrated at something.. Don't feel like doing something and I cant help it but being forced to do so. Like whats the point? Just to make pple happy thats all I guess... Life is just so hectic for me... Just wanna play when I have the time to but.... Just feel like giving up sometimes but I know I can't, just have to persevere on...

You will feel scared sometimes when you have no idea where you will be next time after working sooo hard to get something done. So screwed up. Hai... Guess I am just being optimistic today.. Think I need a day off just a day alone.....

Happen to came across this video funny
"Brokeback to the Future"!

Went for checkup on monday for the SGH job. Have to pass the test before I can work in the hospital sooo mafan... It took me half a day to finish the whole check up.

# 1 Blood test (and my hand has a blue black after that)
# 2 Chest X-ray
# 3 Urine test
# 4 Some other stupid stuff

After that when to DBS to change the date of my loan coz i realise that they charge interest.... So rather pay it off now then letting the stupid bank earn my $$$... Then spend almost the other half of the day at the library doing my assignment (actually is more to watching movie - as to which screen I wanna put in my trailer)

The stress level in me is getting higher n higher man... Am suppose to do up a storyboard by tomorrow but I havent started yet coz I have no idea how to do it... It really sux man.... Not enough time to do also soooo tiring[dont have enough slp everyday]. =(

Went for the interview at SGH yesterday... The interview was.... Just got no words to describe. It really scare the hell out of me man. One of the scariest interview I have ever went to. I have no idea what I was talking throughout the interview tongue tight. One thing abt them is they don't ask questions at all. Where got interviewer don't talk want you tell me. Then like so weird after I talk there is total silence.

But guess what the agent called me just now to tell me that I got the job... But have no idea what is the pay yet.

=P I went for an interview at Sentosa this morning... Haha!! Kinda cool though but they are only paying 6 per hr... But it seem cool, though the job title is administrator but the job scope quite alrite. Will be going for another 1 one Monday which is at Singapore general hospital... Same position but location wise sentosa is definitely cooler.... Haha!! But they are paying $1450 and above per mth... Hmmmm dunno which want to choose if I really got the job...

#1 Choose the want that has better pay and the same old environment.
#2 Choose the want that has a different environment but low pay.

Which will you choose??

Hai... Its just sooo saddening... I am broke in like 1 day after I got my pay... You must be wondering how can it be what did you do with your pay???? You will never understand man. I was kinda shock when I draw $30 out that day... Just sooo depressing... I only spend less then $50 and I am broke... No words to describe.... =X

When for an interview on Saturday.... Its a sales job selling nike bags [at 1st I thought was just that] but after the interview they have counters for nike and Marie Claire bags. Some tai tai bag I guess so sian lah. Have to start looking for job already man.. My contract for Science Centre end this month. Desperate for job... Hahaa!!!

Kinda depress lah coz I got a diploma and I am doing like sales not say sales not good just that u know dunno how to say lah... The lady who interview me ask me that also so irritating she say sumtink like ohhh u got diploma still wanna look for sales ar. Aren't you wasting yr parent $ for studying the diploma.... When I say no I am paying it for myself then she keep quite. Sickening woman....

Anyway I went shopping after that interview...Yup alone... Went shopping alone for the 1st time I shop frm I think 4++ to 730... Haha!! In the end I spend like $50... Bought

#1 Honey vcd
#2 Twins cd
#3 Book

*yawn* So boring as usual.. Think I need to do something different about myself already.. Doing the same thing almost everyday. Need to get a new job pretty. Was thinking actually working in Sentosa isn't that bad though transport there abit more mafan but I think its kinda cool coz I can get take this opportunity to get tan too. =P Have send in my application.. For some of the positions wonder if I would get the job. Haha!!

Had my 1st lesson of year 2006 yesterday it was the 1st lesson of the 4th module. Am suppose to find / do research on which movie I wanna do on.... Coz doing trailer means I have to know the movie very well [I might need to watch it over n over again]. So I gotta find a show that I like... Gonna look for the soundtrack of the movie too... VCD cum soundtrack... Gotta buy again??? =( Thought of it last night when I was on my way home these are the movies that I had thought of :

#1 Honey
#2 Princess Diary
#3 I am Sam

Think most probably I will choose Honey... =P