it was a bad day yest.... wonder why must this happen over n over again.. how i wish i have the rights to scold or rather say them.. cant you just get over n done with it rather then dragging it and get hurt again and again... see already also heart pain.

though i haven been saying much but i really hope i can do something to lessen yr heartache seeing you like tt my heartaches too. guys are just bloody jerks dont they have brain to think oh shd i say they dun have brains at all??? maybe thats the case huh no brainer... fucking piss....

1st we have already tried giving u a bloody chance n u keep ruining it.. i tot this time round you might have learn your lesson and really try to ask us accept u again BUT i was fucking wrong.... no way i am going to try it again... u tink we are stupid or something bloody asshole....

after 1 mth of OT i am finally freeeee or shd i say jobless. Yup have quit the one at 11 Media Channel. Still remember i was so happy that i got this job at 1st but it turns out sucky. OT everyday till 4-5am.. thats pretty bad. NO LIFE indeed... so in order to get another job i have to quit this one 1st. yest was my last day.

as for today onwards i would have to look for a new job in order to survive for the next mth if u guys know me well i dun have any savings so no work no $$ thats kinda bad huh... but at least i am happy now i get my life back... seems like i just came out of jail hahaa can get all the updates frm home / frens and all back to my old life huh...
have to really get a job soon man if not how to "yang jia" hahahaha

all the best to myself... *smile*

am in the office right now (kinda free nothing to do becoz the job have not return frm the client yet).... have been working in this new company for like 8 days... these are the timing i finish work u shall see the difference:

Day 1 = 6 pm
Day 2 = 6 pm
Day 3 = 6.45 pm
Day 4 = 2 am - reach hm at 2.30 am
Day 5 = 11pm - reach hm at 11.40pm
Day 6 = 4 am - reach hm at 4.45 am

As for today i have no idea what time i am suppose to work till.. Haha was saying that i am working permanent night shift. if it continues like tt i have no idea how long i can tahan... damn tired though.. the only days i can enjoy is saturday,sunday and public holidays... cant wait for august...

first day of work as usual have nothing much to do... have been rotting the whole morning... today is just not my day:

1) i forgot my wallet (was abt to board the bus then i found out.) - so i had to run home to get it
2) the bus take so long to come - afraid that i will be late so i took a cab down
3) i make someone i love sad or rather hurt - i feel sad to see you sad... hopefully you will be alrite soon i wanna cya smile

anyway the office look kinda cool... not like what i expected but still not bad. it has the designer feel... thats good enough...

fun doing things together.pitching the tent.sitting by the beach is just so relaxing. though its just a few hours but its enough. having dinner together. shopping for clothes. laughing at stupids things is just so fun. in totally had a great day though its just doing something so minimal...

but at the end of the day its just kinda sad to hear something i dont wanna hear.... though i know i am in the wrong but doing what you like isnt what you are suppose to do? i am just following what my hearts tells me to do.....

last day of work at IMM... pratically have nothing to do just here to rot. how wonderful can it be rite? did ask if i could give today a miss but boss say to come since its the last day. i rather stay at home to slp (coz its like waste of time coming here) kinda tired coz i got home at 330 am last nite so which means i have only 4 hrs of slp. but its worth it... =P

will be starting work on wed... thx god they gave me 2 days to rest before starting work at the new place. of course i will not be rotting at home for those 2 days... =P will be heading down to east coast on mon to chill or shd i say it a camping trip... hahaha yeah camping at east coast park... coolness

i feel great today when i woke up.... (though i am pretty tired)... it feel as if its my birthday.. i will have this exact same feeling when its my birthday.. haha is it becoz tt its a special day??? =P

anyway i am starting my new job on the 11 July (wednesday).. kinda excited...wonder hows the pple, office, environment like.. hopefully its the arty arty kind.. i would to love to work in that kinda environment. heard from him (the guy who interviewed me) that there is a balcony in the office how cool can that be.. i could picture how the office look like (hopefully its what i picture)...

=P New job coming my way, new things / pple in my life. So far life have been great.... Maybe there are still some stuff tt are kinda sucky but life still goes on....

Anyway i got another new job at 11 channel media group (didnt expect to get another one so fast) waiting for them to call to see when i am suppose to start work. Suppose to get a call frm them today but did not. Hopefully they did not cheat my feelings if not i die. Its a advertising firm. Postition as a Graphic Designer... According to the job scope this is what i have been longing for. I am kinda happy.... or rather very happy... Though i will have to work till 2-3am but doing something you like is worth it...

Back to reality.... Just got back frm Langkawi this evening! Had fun, its damn relaxing (where troubles will be all gone)...

View from the cable car.. Damn nice

Went for Island Hopping.... On the way to one of the island.. The water is kinda clear..

View of sunset.. At the lighthouse resturant...

These are some of the pix(out of 190 photos) Haha Can you imagine I have taken so many photos in just 2 days. Anyway I am kinda lazy to elaborate on the places I went coz I am super tired.. Haha Overall its just fun.... =P

I just wonder sometimes why someone can be such a coward that you dont face yours problems. so pou pou ma ma... Just get over and done with it rite???? What the heck are you thinking?? Hurting all the pple ard you and causing yrself to feel bad (i have no idea if you ever feel bad at all). If you dun wanna continue this relationship just end it STOP dragging it.... Like what the fuck. If you think you dun wanna end it, then can you please put yr heart and soul or at least put / show your effort that you really want this to turn out rite??? I really cant stand yr attitude already. Like what the fuck do you want?????? Am sad and tired of you.....

Had my one week break this week... How fast can the time pass man... Its Thursday and I am starting my new job on Monday and another job on like Saturday.

Doing the same thing almost everyday. Woke up in the afternoon, watch TV then go out in the evening. Oh btw went to Pulau Ubin today.... My butt is aching like shit now it seems to have split into half or something (someone said to me this b4 "aint yr butt already split into half??" haha) Anyway its becoz of 4hrs of cycling on the island.... That the cause of the aching. Haha..

Look at how muddy this place is. Lucky I wore the old shoe... If not my shoe is gone.

Took us so long to find this beach. And its about to rain.

"This is what I call FIZZY drinks"
- That is what I said when I took the 1st slip of it.

Had seafood lunch at about 3++

And the 2 bikers who doesnt wanna show their faces. Haha

After the 4 hrs of cycling I bet we have lost quite alot of fats. But know what we when to had steamboat for dinner. Haha!!

Today is the my last day at SGH. Its a mixed feeling... Happy to leave that place and yet sad coz I love my col who are still there. They are just a group of funny pple fun to work and hangout with.... Will definely miss all of you... (the turtles, master splinter, PSP gang)

Had a farewell party last friday as Lin has to fly to perth. Had a great time together.. Had dinner at Riverside Restaurant.. Then hang out at Zouk.

Had a fake cheque from them... They said I could exchange for a real one. So nice of them huh.

The Fake cheque I got from them.

The lovely pple that I am going to miss.

At Zouk

Today last day at the office. Had a surprise for me. ( lunch in and a video from them - so sweeeet)

Finally this is the cute little thing(the operating theatre chip munk) they got for me and the real cheque. =P

Love you guys man!!!

Just bored trying to find something to do...

Did I mention that I have tender my resignation letter? Yeah I have given my resignation letter on Thursday.. Yeah I am leaving that place pretty soon but will miss all my crazy colleques.

Anyway I went Lanjut over the weekends with my fren... Just a 2 days 1 night outing.. Here are some of the photos I have taken:

Breakfast b4 we head down to the resort.

This is how the resort look like... Just some normal looking chalet

Had BBQ buffet for dinner... Yummmy

If there wasnt clouds we will be able to see the beautiful sunrise... Too bad..

how i wish i can dont care abt some stuff but just cant help it. how much i wanna cry sometimes. how much i miss you. how much i wanna forget you. how much i wanna get over you. how much i dun wanna work. how much i feel like screaming. how much i wanna ignore you. how much i wanna scold you. how i get so piss with you. how much i dislike something. how much i wanna get out of this place. how much i wanna get things over and get it done. how much i wanna be alone sometimes. how much i feel like banging the wall. how much i wanna have my brain washed. how much i wanna study. how much i wanna do something but am scare to do so.

after typing the paragraph above i have no idea what am i typing actually... it doesn't really make sense to me.... like why did i type and all.... anyway since i have type it i shall just post it... like who cares rite. nobody will reads anyway.....

anyway am on 2 days mc.... becoz of headache as usual. this time round its worst then the previous coz medi doesn't seem to stop the headache cum i feel nausea. had headache for contiuous 2 days. its kinda scary though coz it had nv happen to be b4 like non stop kind. actually went to the doc on friday but the medi doesnt seems to helps so went back to the same doc today. she concluded that it is migraine. ask to try out the new medi she gave me if it still doesnt work then she will have to investigate to see if there is other reason that cause the headache. how bad can it be rite.... hai.....

Went to catch this show today... To me its damn good though its a sad show but worth watching. You can hear pple blowing their nose in the cinema. Haha!! Yeah I cried... DAMN sad. Shall not tell you guys what is going to happen in the show.. Wanna know go watch it. Read the synopsis below. Trailers click here...


Hearty Paws

Synopsis:
Chan is an 11 year old boy who lives alone with his younger sister, SO-I. Though he’s young, he’s tough and hates losing. He loves his younger sister so much that there isn’t a thing that he wouldn’t do for her. For her 6th birthday, he decides to give her a dog that she’s been longing to have. One early morning in winter when the world is still dark, he sneaks into a house of an old couple and steals a newly-born puppy for his sister. So happy with the dog that she wanted so badly, SO-I names it Maeum, literally translated as Heart. Maeum eats a lot and plays cute, exaggerating pain when it’s stung by a bee. The dog and she becomes really tight with each other, and Chan is happy that the dog takes care of her while he’s gone to school. They thought that happiness with the new family member would last forever. However, something unexpected happens one day, and the relationship between Chan and Maeum is in ruins. What on earth happened?

When to Zouk with my friends yesterday. You just have to pay $10 and you can drink all u want. Its from 6.30pm to 9.30pm. Haha.!! Some highly subsidised thing from SGH. So since its drink all u want my friend kept ordering and in the end all got drunk.


Drank:

White Wine (1 cup)
7 Up Vodka (2 cups)
Orange Vodka (1 cup)
Slush (1 & a half cups)

How can I not be drunk right she keeps filling me with alcohol. Haha... The funny thing is we all got drunk by 9.30pm and that is when people start partying. And we all went "supper" – which is only 9.45pm. Lucky out of five only 3 was drunk. Cant walk str8, puke on the streets... but I was sober. Just that I laugh at everything and starts talking nonsense.

As for my 2 other friends one became super quite (gone home herself cause she couldn’t stand it anymore), the other became very weird. As in she starts talking very loudly actually is more to shouting. She keeps asking : WHY, HOW, WHERE.... So funny.... She drives everyone in the car crazy.... Hahaha...

End of the day there was no casualty, and everyone reached home safely...

Was walking aimlessly on the streets of Orchard yesterday. Happen to passby Cathay so decided to catch a movie as I dun feel like going home that early. Catch DreamGirls, though its kinda long but I think its damn good... Being alone, honestly is very lonely but what to do???

Knowing that this might be the last time we have dinner together... the feeling just kinda sucky... everyone seems to be sooo polite / weird....

Having him peeling prawns & getting drinks for us, bringing the bowls to the sink seems so weird. Have not seen him done that... I just had to control my tears and carry on with dinner... Though its just dinner but it has so much mixed feelings. But really thank god that ma ask him back for dinner.... I know he is doing the job.... Thanks You LORD...

Haven been blogging for sometime.... many stuffs have happen... My life is just like some channel 8 drama. Yeah it really suxs but what to do... I just have to carry on with my life and leave on with it rite??? No matter how much you tear, or how much your heart aches I still have to bear with it.

Anyway thanks for all the msgs that I have receive frm my fren / col ... At least I know that even though times are really bad no matter at home / work / relationship...... YOU guys are always there to support me....

I wouldnt know what the outcome will be like but hopefully it will the best for everyone....

Had to work today... Busy with filling as we are shifting office soon. Suppose to leave office at 12pm but decided to stay to help my friend with filling. So left around 1.20pm (she was still there when I leave, so poor thing)....

Was very hungry so the first thing was to head down to PS to have lunch... Haha... After I filled my stomach went spotlight, dai so to check some stuff for my assignment. Was walking around PS, planning to shop for tees... In the end I couldnt get any, it was either no size or the tee was kinda transluant. Think I was in PS for like 2hrs....

Since I was alone I had nothing much more to do so was thinking of catching a movie at cathay... But in the end, I miss the show(lucky I did not get the tix 1st) coz I was busy shopping for a tee.... By the time I realise it pass the show time already - how lame can it be....

Just feel like being alone for the day....

4th day of New Year and I feel like dying already... Have been feeling kinda weak / tired for the pass few days... Have been dragging myself to work... How I wish I could just lie on the bed... Guess I am falling sick soon. As I tot it wouldnt be that bad my nose bleed for no reason... Like what the heck right. Sian.......

Spend christmas eve at my granny's place as usual. Hang out with my cousins and stuff. Got quite alot of cool pressie from my friends and relatives these are some of them...


new year?? It kinda sucky.... Have no idea if i was feeling emotional or anything.. Come to think its only some stuff that will happen often but just broke down... Like what the heck rite...

When back to work today and I was kinda depress / tired or rather weak (like I dont have enough sleep or something) ... The feeling just isnt good. Memories just start flowing back into the mind thank God i was tooo tired to think abt it.... Yeah tts my new year for you hopefully its gonna get better.... Like eveyone says a new year a new start....(...yeah right but I just gotta believe it will) "Stop thinking about the pass and move on cannnn, why are you such a loser"... How i wish i could just go for a brain wash n forget everything that I dun wanna think / remember about....