how i wish i can dont care abt some stuff but just cant help it. how much i wanna cry sometimes. how much i miss you. how much i wanna forget you. how much i wanna get over you. how much i dun wanna work. how much i feel like screaming. how much i wanna ignore you. how much i wanna scold you. how i get so piss with you. how much i dislike something. how much i wanna get out of this place. how much i wanna get things over and get it done. how much i wanna be alone sometimes. how much i feel like banging the wall. how much i wanna have my brain washed. how much i wanna study. how much i wanna do something but am scare to do so.

after typing the paragraph above i have no idea what am i typing actually... it doesn't really make sense to me.... like why did i type and all.... anyway since i have type it i shall just post it... like who cares rite. nobody will reads anyway.....

anyway am on 2 days mc.... becoz of headache as usual. this time round its worst then the previous coz medi doesn't seem to stop the headache cum i feel nausea. had headache for contiuous 2 days. its kinda scary though coz it had nv happen to be b4 like non stop kind. actually went to the doc on friday but the medi doesnt seems to helps so went back to the same doc today. she concluded that it is migraine. ask to try out the new medi she gave me if it still doesnt work then she will have to investigate to see if there is other reason that cause the headache. how bad can it be rite.... hai.....

Went to catch this show today... To me its damn good though its a sad show but worth watching. You can hear pple blowing their nose in the cinema. Haha!! Yeah I cried... DAMN sad. Shall not tell you guys what is going to happen in the show.. Wanna know go watch it. Read the synopsis below. Trailers click here...


Hearty Paws

Synopsis:
Chan is an 11 year old boy who lives alone with his younger sister, SO-I. Though he’s young, he’s tough and hates losing. He loves his younger sister so much that there isn’t a thing that he wouldn’t do for her. For her 6th birthday, he decides to give her a dog that she’s been longing to have. One early morning in winter when the world is still dark, he sneaks into a house of an old couple and steals a newly-born puppy for his sister. So happy with the dog that she wanted so badly, SO-I names it Maeum, literally translated as Heart. Maeum eats a lot and plays cute, exaggerating pain when it’s stung by a bee. The dog and she becomes really tight with each other, and Chan is happy that the dog takes care of her while he’s gone to school. They thought that happiness with the new family member would last forever. However, something unexpected happens one day, and the relationship between Chan and Maeum is in ruins. What on earth happened?

When to Zouk with my friends yesterday. You just have to pay $10 and you can drink all u want. Its from 6.30pm to 9.30pm. Haha.!! Some highly subsidised thing from SGH. So since its drink all u want my friend kept ordering and in the end all got drunk.


Drank:

White Wine (1 cup)
7 Up Vodka (2 cups)
Orange Vodka (1 cup)
Slush (1 & a half cups)

How can I not be drunk right she keeps filling me with alcohol. Haha... The funny thing is we all got drunk by 9.30pm and that is when people start partying. And we all went "supper" – which is only 9.45pm. Lucky out of five only 3 was drunk. Cant walk str8, puke on the streets... but I was sober. Just that I laugh at everything and starts talking nonsense.

As for my 2 other friends one became super quite (gone home herself cause she couldn’t stand it anymore), the other became very weird. As in she starts talking very loudly actually is more to shouting. She keeps asking : WHY, HOW, WHERE.... So funny.... She drives everyone in the car crazy.... Hahaha...

End of the day there was no casualty, and everyone reached home safely...

Was walking aimlessly on the streets of Orchard yesterday. Happen to passby Cathay so decided to catch a movie as I dun feel like going home that early. Catch DreamGirls, though its kinda long but I think its damn good... Being alone, honestly is very lonely but what to do???

Knowing that this might be the last time we have dinner together... the feeling just kinda sucky... everyone seems to be sooo polite / weird....

Having him peeling prawns & getting drinks for us, bringing the bowls to the sink seems so weird. Have not seen him done that... I just had to control my tears and carry on with dinner... Though its just dinner but it has so much mixed feelings. But really thank god that ma ask him back for dinner.... I know he is doing the job.... Thanks You LORD...

Haven been blogging for sometime.... many stuffs have happen... My life is just like some channel 8 drama. Yeah it really suxs but what to do... I just have to carry on with my life and leave on with it rite??? No matter how much you tear, or how much your heart aches I still have to bear with it.

Anyway thanks for all the msgs that I have receive frm my fren / col ... At least I know that even though times are really bad no matter at home / work / relationship...... YOU guys are always there to support me....

I wouldnt know what the outcome will be like but hopefully it will the best for everyone....