I am soooo tired!! Got to show my tutor the thing he ask me to do by the end of the day [5pm]. And I haven finish yet or rather say it doesn't work! SICKENING!!!! Having headache, stomachache all the aches man!! =( Got shepherding later.... In school I tink!! Not sure also!! Hahaha!!! Wonder what is she going to teach me later!! Anyway too tired to type already!! Sooooooooooo SIAN!!!!

Messages:
[Friends are all getting sick so just wanna say tk cr yah!!]

Joanne: How are feeling better?? [yr leg] Hahaha!! Alright shall not laugh! Cant imagine man!! Yr leg swollen!! Anyway guess will be alright soon!! Like what u say maybe becoz of the weather.

Priscilla: How u are feeling better!! Drink more water yah!! Hehehe!!! Dun last min!! [copy me]
Hahaha!!

Dawn: You too muz tk gd cr of yrself yah!! Just trust in him [papa up there]!! He will bring u through!!
Jia you!!

Diane: Hope u are doing fine!!! Tk cr!!!

Hahaha!! Guess what I was bathing half way then my hse black out. It like the whole block or rather say most of the areas in spore!! Hahaha!! Its kena cool though!! Haha!! Soooo romantic! Can c candle light frm every window and the stars too soooo nice!! Just love the atmosphere!! Had to wait for 45 mins then the electricity is back!! Anyway really thx God for giving us electricity!!!

Wow!! Just realize tt nowadays I write very long messages!! Is it becoz I got a lot of things to say or rather say its complain!! Have been complaining non-stop ever since I start school [final year project]!! So just bear with it lah!! Hahahah!! Anyway also complain 6 wk liao 6 more wks doesn't make any difference. 6 more wks and I am done with this stupid project!!! Pple pray for me k??? Pray tt I will be posted to a firm tt do html and not java for my attachment if not I will be dead by then!! If I get into a html firm at least I wouldn't complain!!! Hahaha!! So muz help me yah!! Hahaha!!! How I wish I could go into a firm which ask me to help them do web site for company..... Wow how I wish I can do tt!!! Other then animation I find tt very interesting too!! Maybe can go for further studies on tt but then guess they dun have it in spore!! Everything I want to study also dun have!! Check on the internet already they dun have!! Unless I go overseas!! But where got $??? So expensive to study overseas!!! Hai!!! Maybe GOD just want me to stick with JAVA cum DNA stuff!!!! BUT BUT I dun wan!!!! Its sooo torturing to do tt everyday!!! I will just kill myself if I have to do tt after I graduate!!! Hahaha!!

GOSH!!!! I am soooo STRESS!!!
Conversation between my partner and I [today]:

[Partner]: Hey denice can u finish the servlet by this week?
[Moi]: Erm I dun think so, coz I haven download the program and I dunno how to do it coz I nv learn b4! But I will try too!! I will try my very best to do it!!
[Partner]: Oh ok lor!!

Arrrgggg I feel sooo bad!! Like always dunno how to do always give him trouble!![Coz for the last few semester I dun take java, I take ASP/VB--programming language] I really pity him!! Kena the same grp as me!! Hahaha!!! GOD give me lots n lots of WISDOM [on java] can??? Please I beg u!!! How I wish I am a java genius!!! That's y wish now!!

Hai.... I really have to try to finish something by this week!! Coz next week is presentation already!! We are suppose to show the tutor what we have done so far!! =( As u know I didn't really do a lot not becoz I nv do my work is becoz I just can't make my program work!!! =( I HATE JAVA!!!! Can u imagine how much pressure is on me now!!! Its tons n tons of them!!! Soooo heavy!!! SADDENING!!!! I will go mad becoz of java!! Very soon I guess!! Xinni get me a place in Woodbridge yah!! U are nearer to tt place so its easier for u to book!!! Hahhaha!! MENTAL!!! [ Dida does this sound familiar? Hehe!! ] =)

PROBLEMS!!! PROBLEMS!!! PROBLEMS!!! Y nowadays pple ard me got sooo many problems?? Those who really cant take it will really go mad!! Guess its just "some" testing from GOD!!!

Got this frm my friend's blog [hope u dun mind]:

Problem is only problem when you define it as one, if you dun think of it as one, it is not. Do you drag yrself to work or school everyday?? I do!! Hehe!! But why not try thinking it in another way?
Example,
1] If you need to report for work, Think: You will be getting another day's pay and get more work done...!
2] If you need to attend school, Think: You will be learning new things, achieve higher wisdom...


Though its easier to say then to carry out!! But it kinda make sense!!! Papa up there only give us testing tt we are able to do it!! No parent in the world will want to see his/her child to suffer they only want to see them grow and mature!! This is also what papa want to see in us!!! So when you have any problems never give up yah!! I am also trying my best not to give up in my studies [the course I am doing now coz I really hate it but still I never give up, still perserving]!! So pple out there lets face our problem and solve it together??? Remember NEVER GIVE UP yah!!!!

Papa up there what should I do????

Human Organ Transplant Act
When to tk the letter just now!! Its abt donating yr organs after u pass away... Think they change the rule or something... Coz as long as u are 21 u they will donating yr organs when u die! SO if u dun wan then can opt out!! But got pple will opt out meh?? Die already still want organs for what mine as well give it to someone who needs it!! RIGHT???

=( I want to cry liao! Now waiting for the tutor coz he toking to the other tutor!!! Want to inform him tt I wanna go home!!! Saddening man!!! I want to shout leh!! Coz under STRESS [lots and lots of it]!!!!

Gosh!!! Woke up with a gastic again!!! Y??? But I still go to school!! No choice got to force myself to if not muz take mc already!! So expensive!! [to see a doctor] Arrrggg!!! Then now got headache!! Sick man!! I hate this feeling, feel soooo weak now!! Hai.... "I WANNA GO HOME"!!!!!

Messages:
dida: Read yr blogs just now!! Wow you guys went to some choco thing rite sounds delicious! Yum! Yum! Hahahha!! How I wish I was there... Then can slack together! Hahaha! Anyway Diane dun slack tooo much later cum bk die man!! Hahaha!! Dawn are u feeling better already read di blog saying tt you got fever!! Hmmmm we are sooo weak!! Haha!! Get sick sooo easily.... Anyway U guys tk cr and miz ya!!!

Got shepherding just now!! Learn something new today shepherd know I was unhappy for the past few days so she taught me abt joyfulness!!! Hehehe... Anyway got gastic when I was on my way home!! Almost puke!! Lucky never lah!! When I got home my mum told me tt I got a register letter... Guess what! Its abt some organ donor thing!! Haha!! When did I donate my organ?? Muz go to the post office tml to see what is it all abt!! Btw I was thinking if I wan to donate my organ who will want it!! Hahaha!!! Always headache, gastic then got asthma like all got problem. Haha!! How to donate!!! My sister say inside all spoil!! Ass!!! Hahaha!!!

Guess what!!! My tutor praise me today!!! Hahaha!! He actually say GOOD JOB!!! Wow!! Amazing huh!! Wow I still cant believe it!! Is he in a good mood or did I hear it wrongly?? Hahaha!!! After sooo much scolding/nagging frm him, he actually praise me today!! WOW!!!!

This really brighten my day abit!! Coz have been feeling moody!! Arrrrg I really hate this feeling!! It really sux!! Muz straighten things out and try not to think abt it after tt!! Trying to make myself busy!!! But when I am free tt moodiness is back!! Hai!!! Is this what you call depressed?? Or is it a sign telling me tt I am in the process of heading towards depressions??

Only thing I feel now is SIAN, SIAN, SIAN!!!! Have not been in a very good mood today either!! Just feel like being alone when I am outside.... You know like those channel 8 movie where pple will walk along the road alone? Hahaha!! Yah tts what I feel like doing!!!

How long can I persevere????
Hmmm.... Have been thinking quite a lot yesterday!!! Feeling better today at least I dun feel tt frustration inside anymore!!! Guess its because I dun have enough sleep or something!! Feeling very very tired now!! Can just fall asleep anytime but trying to make myself awake coz I've been slacking for 2 days already its time to work!! Hehehe!!!

Drag myself to sch today!!! Feeling kinda weak!! Coz like no strength especially my legs guess if sum1 push me I will just fall [coz got gastic's last night then tt stupid head of mine ache like hell]!!! HAI!!!!!! Have been trying to make tt stupid program work but can't!! SIAN!!! Gosh!! Its already wk5 still got 7wks more to go!! Got to persevere somemore!! After tt attachment guess tts gonna be worse!!! Arrrggg!!! I am going crazy soon!!! Real SOON trust me!!!

Da has left!!
Da in on the plane heading towards Melbourne now. Went to the airport to send her off just now... She tried to make me cry but I didn't [control control]!!! Hehehe!!

Messages:
Dawn n Diane : Just wanna wish you all the best in yr studies/teaching n tk good care of yrself yah!! [di:Cum bk we go out for dinner k]...

Aipeng : I know recently lots of things happen but dun worry just preserver on yah!!! Papa up there will help u [though he is testing u but remember he only test pple on things tt he know u can do it]!! So jia you k!!

Should I go ahead with it??
Hmmm... Found an animation school online tt day!! Its call Intense Animation Studio they are giving part-time classes on animation and its only takes me 3mths to complete the course!! Was thinking of going to this sch after I graduate!! But dunno if its the right choice!! Tok to my mum n dad abt it and they say go ahead with it after I graduate... But one thing I am worry abt is, after this course would I be able to work in an animation firm?? Guess I should find out more abt it!!!

ARRRRG!!!!
Feeling very frustrated today!! Dunno y lucky nothing bad happen today if not I will really blow up man [Eg, pple in the mrt push me or something]!! Dun feel like toking and feeling really moody!! Saddening man!!! Alright I gonna stop here got to slp liao have to wake up early and face reality [sch]!!!!

I am sooooo bored now... Got nothing to do... Actually got but then I dun feel like doing. Very SIAN!!! Got a presentation later!! Hope everything turn out fine!! Doing most of the talking... Scary... Suppose to have the presentation at 10:30am but the tutor got to go somewhere so change it to 2:30pm instead. Kinda know what to say but scare later when its time to present I panic then die liao!! Guess I should pray for calmness and courage. =) Wish me luck man!!

Yes tml is Saturday liao. Half day of school then after tt I might go and cut my hair. Hahaha!! Mummy doesn't want to cut for me she ask me to go get it cut myself, coz she say she not free! Wonder how I am suppose to tell the hair dresser..... Coz my mum always help me cut my hair I dun remember going to the saloon to cut my hair b4!!! Hahaha! After tt go to church!! YEAH!!! Tml got center stage [guess its the semi-final]! After church have to rush down to my granny's place coz they celebrating her bday somewhere near her house....Alright I shall stop here... TK CR!!!!

LOOK ALIKE
Dun they look alike!! Can't stand it man when I see Oscar [the fish] reminds me of DELIA CHUA!!! Hahahaha!!! U can compare it below!!!

SADDENING CUM STRESS
Finally settle down to do my work today!! Coz the tutor came over to check what we have done so far. He saw our presentation slide and say tt we have to redo it!! SO I redo it this is nothing another thing tt is sad is because...... WHATEVER I have done for the past 1 or 2 wk is wrong!! I have to redo the whole thing!!! NEVER MIND with soooo many support I shall persevere and do it.... Arrrggg!!

Time to count down!!!
It 4:54pm now!!! 6 more mins I can clock out already!!! YEAH!!! Have always been waiting for this time of the day man!!! Didn't do much today, fell aslp after I took my medi again!! Want to know what I do today?? Think only write report for my presentation for Friday then recode my program only!! SIAN!!! Really dun have the mood to do anything!!! 3 more mins...... 2 more mins ...... 1 more min.... Yeah!!! I am going home!! Cya!!!

Finally got my shoe!!!

STOP!!!
Dun click the back button u r on the right blog!!! Hahaha!!! Was sooo bored yesterday so I change my blog again!!! Guess this is the 4th time already!! Hehehe!! Now u know how bored I am?

As usual I am in school now!! All because of this FYPJ thing I can't go for the FRESHMAN camp [survivor]!!! Cool rite survivor camp leh heard tt they had prepare a lot of games and u will get very dirty during the camp!! Wow I love this kind of camp man!!! [I know some of u must be thinking mad but its very fun wat!!] Hahahaha!! Tooo bad I can't go!! =( Guess God knows tt after Sunday I will get a backache [guess is becoz of the blading, I fell remember... Can't really move man!! Butt hurts, waist hurts so only 1 word "OUCH"!!] so he dun allow me to go for camp!!! Hahaha! If not when I come back frm camp is even worse!! For those who are going for the camp ENJOY yrself k!! Must tell me the details when u all cum back!! I am waiting!!! Hehehe!

Yeah I got water baptize today!! So happy!! Really excited yesterday couldn't slp!! Not only becoz of water baptism another reason is becoz my cousins are cuming to witness my water bap. One of my friend cant remember who say I very funny cousins come and see me I so excited!! Hahaha!

Lucky they made it on time to witness it I was praying tt they will come on time!! In my heart was like "where are they, reach anot yet... shit its gonna be my turn soon" Hahaha!! Really panic man! But was really very happy to see them sorry to make you guys run!! Hehe!! Oh my aunts too they came just to congratulate me I am sooo touch!! Was very surprise to see t-kwan didn't know tt she will cum!! Hehehe!! Tears starts to roll down after tt coz I was sooo touch!! Hahaha!! If u all happen to read this thx u soooo much for cuming!! Thx to my church friends too for all the encouragement!! Xie Xie! [Sound like I got some award] Hahaha!!

After the water bap went to blade with Aipeng, Jo-n, Eunice, Huimei... Guess what I fell 3-4 times all on the same side of my butt!! Now got 2-3 blue black on my butt!! OUCH!! Hahaha!! Although I got bruises all over but then I still enjoy myself! Hehehe!!Will never forget this day 13 JUNE 2004!! (o"o)

REALLY ENJOY MYSELF TODAY!!!

Yeah its Saturday again!! My head is spinning now! Can't take my medi coz I haven eaten anything yet! Going to meet my mama for lunch later coz she has been nagging!! After tt will be going for service.
I am going for water baptism tml! Just know abt the water baptism yesterday!! So its kinda rush to choose a name for myself... In the end I choose Joelle = Joel found this name from the net [Btw its a girl's name]. Hehehe! So from tml onwards I am Denice Joelle Chua Hwee Yee. Hahaha!! Its doesn't match ar sound sooo weird!!! I shall stop here, update u guys again.... Tk cr!

MC
Wanted to blog yesterday but couldn't access to the blogger webbie!! Anyway not feeling well went to see the doctor yesterday and it cost "41" bucks.... Sooooo expensive right! Heart pain man 41 bucks can buy sooo many things...I got 2 days mc so was resting at home yesterday and today!! Was really slping the whole day yesterday coz of the medi [most of them cause drowsiness]! Feel like a jelly now think is because I sleep too much! ok shall stop here!! Tk cr n miss ya!

Here I am again..... Didn't wan to cum to school today coz was having a headache this morning. Nose block cant smell anything,just like an old granny [cough like 1, sound like 1 coz my voice change] Hahaha!! But no choice I still drag myself here!! Coz if I dun go to school I have to go c a doctor to get a mc. Hai.... SIAN!!!! See how maybe I really cannot tahan then I will leave school early to get a mc for today and tml ....

Hmmmm.... Got presentation next week [abt what we have done so far n the progress in our project]... I have been thinking back I didn't really do much leh!! Coz its either the program doesn't work or the software doesn't work. I am like being cursed coz at 1st my program will work but then when I go to school the next day it has lots of error. Weird rite [I also dun have any idea y]???? Got to continue doing my work liao!! Tk cr n miss ya! (o"o)

I am back!!!
Was back yesterday!! Though was very tried [lack of slp] but it was great!! Has loads of fun!!! Learn quite alot from the camp!! Didn't get to shop lah but then I learn a valuable lesson of how to be a good disciple of God!! Hehe!! Anyway I am in school now!! Got to face reality again!! Hai... I am sick,got slight fever yesterday but today feeling better already [nose still stuck, voice still remain sexy Hahaha!].... Keke I got to start working on my project liao!! Arrrrrg I am stuck again [dunno how to do]!! I HATE this man!!!

CAMP
Hahaha!! I am sooo excited now!! Coz I going over to 1 of my fren hse to say over nite then the next day is camp liao!! Will be back on Sunday!! Dun miz me too much yah!! Hahaha! Tell u guys abt the camp wen I cum back!! Tk cr n cya!!

WASTING OF TIME
As usual I am in school! Downloading this program call "MySQL" in Linux! That makes it extra difficult to download!! Arggg after I download the program it cant work! So sickening lor! Ask tutor he say "Denice u should try know".... I dunno then ask wan rite wat the *@%^! Opps!! Hehehe!! I spend the whole afternoon solving it yest and now I am trying it again!!! So I guess I will waste my time again!!! If he help at least I can start on my work already!! Always like tt what is tutor for man!! Cannot ask how to do!!! God HELP me!!!

Complains
Hahaha!! I realize tt ever since I start school I have been complaining!! =) But no choice I cant complain it to anyone sooo I complain it to the computer lor!! Hahaha!! Yeah I going for my tea break liao!! Tata!!!